when you love....

love changes everything, i believe in that.... If you say it's base from experience,well some i'd say yes and some well is from the people i know...
The way i love, well, its kinda interesting. I'm the type of person that is really tough inside and out but when i love someone, those defenses breaks and i become vulnerable. I tried to stop that feeling but i just can't. Its easy to say that i'd love the person but i won't give him my all but thats a lie coz i know for a fact that often give everything. even when i try so hard to leave some for myself..
I been in relationships that didnt work. flings that leads no where coz family can't accept the person no matter what and love that you know is useless even when you try so hard to make things work.
Pride in love, well i don't really think it should be involve. I use to think about my ego more than what i feel but things had change, relationship wont work if you have that but respect should be present. I really believe that respect and trust is really important in a relationship. if you don't have that, better call it quits or else you'll end up hurting each other in the long run.
I'm spoiled when it comes to relationship. I want all the attention to myself. i admit that but hey, it doesnt mean that you have to give me 24/7 of your attention, an hour a day is enough for me, or for my case since my husband and I got different time schedule, i work -he's in school, i get home-he's at work, he gets home-i'm asleep...so you see, the in betweens that we see each other is enough for me... thats how i am and i don't think i can change but i'm trying...
well, in life, you cant help it if family comes in and bug you w/ your relationship. They approve yet mostly they don't esp. when you're only girl but heck it doesn't mean that if you love someone, since your parents doesnt agree, you cant fight for it... If the guy love you, he'll do everything to make your parents mind change...i believe in that but if he won't do anything, thinking still your parents wont change their minds and yet you and him sneak out and shit happens, well be prepare to suffer the consequences...its your decision, its your life...
i'm lucky i have such wonderful family though sometimes its too much on my part. there are things i want to express that i cant and i choose to be quiet, that way things will stop right there yet if you hurt, cry it out. Its better that way than sucking it all up. And with this, i believe the true meaning of friendship, your true friends will be there for you no matter what. even when you haven't heard from them for a while, when you get the chance to communicate, they will always back you up.... cherish your friends...love them...
i'm gonna end this now, i know i'm blabbering...i have nothing else to do and my mind is not in place at the moment...a lot of things happen this past week, i may be gazillion miles away from my family back home but heck when a problem strike, we stick together... my grandma raised us that way....
i dont regret in my life. every decision i made has its reasons. I love my family, i love nik, i love my self, and i love my friends...they are my treasures in life... whatever it is i did in the past, it made me a better person but i can't help but hurt people along the way. I wish karma would understood why things happen..it happens for a reason, its the way my life is...

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