Life lessons...

As i grow older i'm wishing i'm back to being 16 and certain decisions in my life is something i should have looked into as practicality not for the heck of it. I shouldn't say i regret it because I've learned and i did the hard way.

Life choices - one thing i'm to cowardly facing on what i really want out of it. I used to be a dreamer, now my dreams are just something i do when i read a book and then when i'm done with it, i become too practical and go back to my old self. I know i al a big fat coward when it comes to life, i am paranoid to face the real world. Paranoid to be embarrass or make mistakes. Life is what we make of - this is what i made it off.

Vacay time!!!!

Im goin home im goin home!!!! Yay!

My mom told me....

Things i should have listened and followed. Shit happen but life goes on.

In 1 month....

I'm flying home!!!!!! Havent been home in 1.5yrs , i cannot wait to see my family and friends but i sure will miss my bubu

When do u let go?

I have asked myself this a thousand times but i cannot seem to have any answer over it. Maybe because you are scared, maybe because you think you are a coward and maybe just maybe you just can't. Whatever it is - it is one of the most difficult thing to do.

You hear people having incurable disease and are thankful it is not you but it makes you wonder if people would love you more when you have one. You see i have 2 wonderful children that i love the most - i would die for them, they make my life more meaningful. I love my husband to death and i know my biggest mistake yet is not leaving some for myself.

But how can you do that? I have seen it with my parents, my mom leaving us to find herself because she has given everything yet she felt under appreciated. Thats what made me tougher over the years and she did came back - she loves her children beyond word can say & was able to fall in love again with my dad and sometimes i wanna kick myself because they were the example. I told myself not to let it happen but slowly i slipped in to the same situation. Sad but thats the truth.

They said that care a lil less, less and leave yourself some but if thats what it is then that couldnt be called LOVE. I guess with my 30 yrs in this world, i still know nothing but i have to say my children are my life. Without them i am nothing even with the stressfulness of life they send my way - i would not trade it for anything. And yes i have nothing to say my own in terms of material things but my children are my own. Whatever happens they are me and i am them and their happiness is my priority.

2 months

And ill be back home in the Philippines!!! Yipee sooo excited:) sooo today i told myself i need to do my everyday biking soo ill be fit when i get there :))

Here goes

California Capitol in Sacramento

Shots taken by Me :)

Lake Elsinore

Shots using bu's iPhone and taken from Highway 74. What a view but that road is seriously dangerous, 1 mistake and you can fall on the cliff/ravine and can i say i got dizzy from it?!?! too much curves!

Napa

My aunt, cousin and nephew lives there. I was given a chance to see the place when the 3 of them moved there and we came to visit... here are some shots i took when we were there last year:) I'm hoping to visit the place again before the year ends :)

Enrolled the Princess to K2!

Yay so today opens the enrollment for my baby girls elementary school, i went straight to the Menifee Unified School District Enrollment services after i drop her off her preschool. Having kai with me, i know it will be a challenge knowing that it will take a while and lots of parents would be there too. So i came prepared, i brought some crackers and oreos in a ziplock and apple juice ofcourse. A toddler have a short attention span so making them busy is a goal for me so he'll behave and wouldnt act up in the office.

Ha! True enough, he was busy munching on foods i got him and was amuse seeing other kids over there, although he got some antics (like he thinks he's a superhero and start blasting everyone in the room with his hand - like ironman) i gotta say he did behave.

I was worried that i would be late picking up kali at her school, i know if i wanna make it before 11 at her school, i have to leave the place by 10:30 (consider the traffic) & well like any office transaction it did take a while though i was out there by 10am soo we decided to swing by the hubs work and say HI :))

The boy did lit up when he saw his dad and wondered when we left why his dad didnt drive home with us :) told him papa will be home soon and needs to drive his own car home :)

I was 18 min early at my princess school so i had enough time to munch on skme pasta salad at the parking lot since i left home before 8am and only had coffee :)) well you gotta do what you gotta do right?

Now the 3 of us are home and hubs should be home soon too. I'm done with my errands and i have a half say to spare and do whatever i feel like. Right now i want a nap but we'll see since i need to work my ass off today. Still kinda sore from monday's workout so i'm going to take it easy...

I'm overwhelmed that my baby girl start big school this come school tear, i know she will do good but it does make me realize that i am indeed getting older. Hayyy life :)

Hoping your day is as productive as mine, tata for now :))

Xoxo
Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh.

Day 1 workout

I stopped working out since Kali started school last year in August. I was doing quit good for 3-4months straight and then i got lazy because i havent been getting enough sleep when the princess started school so i fell behind and next thing i know its 2012...

I have given up rice over the lent. Yes i am catholic and i kinda hate myself for not as religious as i used to be before i moved to the US of A. Though i do attend church every sunday prior to having kids then when i started having children - i kinda stopped. It is kinda challenging for me to drag two kids by myself at church every sunday. The hubs usually have work on weekends and out church where i live only offers mass in the morning of sunday.

Though i still pray at home & still attends mass on holy week, xmas and etc and ofcourse teaches my kids how to pray and talk to jesus at night - i still feel that despite not being able to go to church as often as im suppose to, i try to pay my respect in my own way.

So this year for the first time in years, a friend and i decided to give something up for the entire lent and holy week. We gave up rice and knowing me and her - we cannot live without it. Its a must on every meal. A meal aint complete without it.

I was suppose to start ash wednesday but prior to that i had a dental appointment on the monday before ash wed & ended up having a root canal. Since it was my first and was scared that i could fucked it up afterward i started eating just soup (Pho - vietnamese beef noodle soup) and it went on mon & tues soo by ash wed it was actually my 3rd day of eice. It was tough i tell you but i know injust had to so it. If i cant do something as easy (hardest for me) this, then i am no good - i have no will power and i was not to accept that...

So it went on replaying rice with pasta at first and the hubs keep telling me that i might as well eat rice if im eating pasta sooo i started cooking steamed veggies and oatmeal as my rice replacement and the next thing i know - today is my 29th day off rice and my abs are starting to look nice. But that's not enough, i gotta add working out - i know but i was too damn lazy.

So today i told myself enough is enough. I have to work out sooo i finally did for 25mins. I know its short but hey you gotta start somewhere right??!!! Maybe after i pick up the princess at school im gonna hit my bike. Baby steps :))

Anyway, im hoping to have more define abs and legs by the time i take my vacation back home. I have 3 mos to go to do that. And well i'm not getting younger so i gotta take care of myself right? Soo there today's day 1 im gonna keep track on my workout here on my blog. Bear with my silliness :)... Tata for now 😉😉😉

Xoxo
Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh. 💛

Hook

Ever remember the movie Hook? I remember growing up it was one of my fave. The fact that i'm a big Peter Pan fan and of course the stars Robin Williams who played Peter, Dustin Hoffman as hook and the gorgeous Julia Roberts as Tinkerbell :))

Anyways, since having netfilix we have been watching movies that are either foreign films (particularly chinese ones !) or ones we grew up with but have no copies of... Tonight, i wanted to show my kids the peter pan movie version ive grown up with. The start was lil boring on the kids but the lil kids dis caught their attention. My daughter was whining that she wanted to change the movie till the part were Peter (Robin W.) was taken to Neverland by Tink and met the lost boys...

Ahhh i love the classics :)) if they ever sell this movie on Bluray, i'd definitely get me a copy so my kids will be able to watch this whenever they want ...

So if you grew up in my generations and love Peter Pan and you got netflix subscription - do make time and watch Hook, i'm sure you'd enjoy reminiscing your childhood and wish you didnt grow up :)) remember, there is a child in us :))

Xoxo

Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh =)

Ideas for my boy's 3rd birthday :)

Soo its the time of the year where you throw your child a party. Since 2012 they say is the "end of the world" my FIL wants to throw party on each of our bday this year and the fact that his and kai's bday are just a day apart - we will throw them a joint party here at home :)

I know my boy thinks he is a superhero and as much as i wanna throw him a superhero themed party, its kinda hard for me to look for a party favors for adults... Soo i'm going for a jungle/safari themed party :))

I have seen what favor i wanna buy online but i havent really mailed in any invitation though i have informed friends & family about it. I'm still waiting for one tiny detail that i had made online to get in the mail for the invites :))

I just love parties i just hate the cleaning up part :)) but well as long as everyone have fun its worth it :)

Crossroads

Life as we know has been so cruel to me though i have so much to be thankful for. i am a strong woman, whatever stone thrown my way i know i can fight it and keep my life going. Its not about me, its my children that fuels me up. Its them that i am strong. They did not choose me as their parent so if i ruin life for them, i would be unfair.

Xoxo
Nynka

My all time fave Korean TeleNobela

Winter Sonata... you can watch it here: here w/ english subtitle :)

Saying Sorry

When intoxicated, we say things we don't mean and the fact that you can admit you were wrong and apologize - i think is enough to know the person is sincere.

i'm back!

I keep forgetting my account information that's why i havent been able to blog for a while now... soo finally i was able to retrieve everything so now i'm back :)