Wednesday, July 25, 2007

dont u think its unfair?

2 people who lives w/ us here in the house are being a pain. They think that because this isn't their place, they can just do what they want. Heck! it annoys me when they see us clean, i mean thoroughly cleaning the place and yet they still mess it up. Like the kitchen, you see we spray it w/ disinfectant and yet they mess it up w/ sticky stuff and they just wipe it in a way that its sticky... doesn't that ever annoy you???

or they turn on the AC when we don't even though that coz we conserve energy and even if its hot, we just let the fan do its job instead of saying, Man its HOT and switch the AC on... I can do that if im insensitive but i dont since i pity Nik for he's the one paying for the electric. I barely even wash our clothes, i mean, I wash prolly 3x a month that way its a lot and i don't have to use too much heater on the dryer although i know it uses more of the electric than the gas in the first place and yah, we pay for the water too... Paying for the Gas and the Phone after over a year of living here isn't that bad right? I mean you werent even sensitive enough to think that the Dad is paying $300/mo for 3 months over summer because you were living high and mighthy w/ the AC on all the time because it was hot.

I can totally relate w/ how we feel in this place, its like Hell but then, i'm trying to be sensitive in not making my husband pay more than enough and besides he doesn't make that much. Fuck! this really frustrate me but like my husband says, money isn't worth fighting for but someday somehow a time will come that i will not keep my mouth shut and say what i wanna say. Fuck if i'm the bad person but hey! look into yourself and ask AM I BEING FAIR TO THIS PEOPLE????

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

i think she is!

i think my sister is bipolar! i talked to her OMG she's just so weird, its like 2 personality in one... Oh well, she's still my sister even if she hurt me a lot i still love her but well I don't think ill ever ask favors from her ever...

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

it hurts to hear your sis say....

i hurt so bad right now.... A person who is flesh and blood has said after my mom told her that when she's here she can help me out coz i'm about to give birth by that time and she just replied "AYOKO NGA, GAWIN NYA LANG AKONG YAYA" in a bitchy way. I hurt. I never do that to my siblings, never did. My brother was here for 7 weeks and never did i ever commanded him to do something for me, he hates it when i carry the laundry basket saying I shouldn't be carrying heavy stuff because its bad for the baby. I've been living here for 3.5 years now and I've been able to survive everything. A person, flesh and blood says that to your mom about you and your mom knowing you will find out told me before i get to hear it from someone else. It hurts... try to imagine how it feels but i'm not gonna mop around and live my life because of what she said. I have Nik, i have my mom and i have people who are more willing to help me in everyway they can even when they are so far away...