i feel safe here

but its complicated still... i still love blogging over at multiply but if i write something, i shouldn't add my sister coz my mom's open her acct w/c isn't good...she read some of my rant over there.... i made peace w/ myself last night but i dont know if i'm happy or what? strange..... happiness means being w/ my loved ones but why do i feel so incomplete??? im thankful for lots of things but i have no one around me whom i can talk to, well except for my hubby but its different having friends around.... i felt so carefree when i went home during my sister's graduation... life........ we cant have everything...