i wish

i have one wish this year and that is to be able to go home before New Years. I dont plan to go home this christmas because I want Kali to celebrate xmas here in US but I wanna have our new year back home but the fares are expensive. I dont want to add more on what we owe because of this but really I wanna go home... I know i cant have this but hey its my wish right... Maybe santa will give me this after all... who knows... i wish!

HA! $2500 to go home?!

I was checking online the prices for plane fare earlier... Man its expensive! Just for me and Kali to be able to go home after xmas and before new years to Gensan would cost us almost $2500.00 so if Nik will come it'd be $4000... Are you kidding me?! Yes i know i wanna go home but for that price, i aint pushing it because for one we cant afford it (the honest truth) and 2nd we need to save for the wedding next year and with another baby coming in the way, we really need to save... Now however, if I win the lottery, that's a different story!!! Haha I wish!!!!

Oh well, we can never have it all right but hey! i'm thankful that my family is healthy (not that i'm healthy... but i'm not complaining)...

So yah, just sharing my thoughts

im tired

doing the same routine everyday is tiring. I'm bored out of my wits. I'm tired w/ everything.... I need a breather but my life right now isn't all about me anymore. I have to think of my baby and the lil angel growing inside me before anything else. I hurt. I'm tired. I don't know what to do anymore....

Its tough when people don't understand what you're going through! I never want this thalassemia. I didnt choose to have this but I have it and I have to live my life w/ it forever, i just wish they understand that even when I try to be normal like everyone else. My life will never be that normal...

I hurt inside, they just don't know... One day I have a feeling i'll just colapse from all of this. Things are things, even when they are expensive but my body can never be okay even with that... I just need to be understood. I just need someone to help me through this. I just need someone who is there...

beauty sleep

I just woke up, i have a lot of bottles to clean and I need to change into my pj's. Not that i'm not on it right now, Kali happens to splatter some carrots on me earlier that's why i need to change.

I like sleeping early and like they said, sleep when the baby sleeps. I try too but its just hard when you do everything yourself.... That's why i try to do things i need to do in the afternoon when hubby gets off from work so i could sleep early but today was a lazy day...

Gosh, heat wave is coming up again... I've been loving the weather for the past 2 days and now I have to deal w/ the 90's temp again! I guess i can't let Kali use her overalls yet (though i've been doing that for the past 2 days - she looks so damn cute on it!)...

I can't really wait for winter time to come. I hate having to deal w/ the heat if you ask me, that's why frisco's weather is just the best but i've heard from my friend that its been hot there too but hey! they barely feel the heat if you ask me. That's what i love about frisco. You can count the number of days it gets hot over there than over here... Oh well, we live in sunny california!

I should be sleeping again... Well, i'm gonna go start cleaning the bottles now.... I got over 2 hours of sleep already so I'll hit the bed after (hoping KALI wont wake up)... Hayyyy this is beauty sleep!:) Anyways, ttfn!:) NYT!

The Body Shop

Two years ago my mother-in-law got into an accident. The moment we heard the news we were all in shock. At first thing came to our mind is that is mama okay and then the next, did someone get hurt... Good thing it only involve her car and a slippery freeway and no one was injured except for her car. It was a big one that we thought it couldn't be repaired. Thank God for the AUTO BODY SHOP they were able to repair the damage in my mother-in-laws SUV and it runs like the way it did prior to the accident. With affordable rates & friendly people who helps you access the damage and gives you advices, you'd never ask for anything more. They take care of you...


Accidents hurts, it hurts people and it hurts your pocket but with downey body shop you know you are being taken care of. I know where i'll go when i need any bodyworks on my car, our experience with downey body shop were excellent that I can recommend to my friends and family their work of art!

turning 27

OMG, i can't believe i'm 27! It seems that time had past by so fast that i just woke up and realize i'm 27. Nothing had change except that at 27 i'm a mom. Though career wise i havent really accomplish anything, i'd say i'm pretty proud of myself being a hands on mom... Next year, well it would be different. I'll have 2 kids, haha i wonder how i'll do by then.

I'd be lying if i tell you that i'm not struggling here. I am. Its hard being a mom to a 10 month old baby, a wife (to a [thankfully] not demanding husband!) and pregnant at the same time... I know i know you'd say i'm a fool getting myself in this situation because to be honest, i have asked myself how in the world did it happen when we were using protection but i guess when its God's will, its happens so i'm just thankful for the blessing. What a wonderful bday gift indeed...

Physically i'd tell you that i'm really tired. I just reach my 13th-week today and i have 27 (what a coincidence!) more weeks to go before i'd meet this lil' angel in me and I'm just excited. I do hope my body cooperates because right now, i feel like crap. I have this headache thats been going on for the past 3 days now and well I feel so stress...

I didnt really ask any gift from Nik this year. I told him to save all the gifts i'm entitled too for the whole year (so there's valentines day,mom's day, bday, anniv, & xmas) to just one gift and I can only get it on xmas! hehe so i'm looking forward to that and I know he's saving for our wed next year too! so i'm trying not to bug the hell out of him when it comes to spending, unless ofcourse it has something to do w/ diapers, wipes and milk!

A lot had happen over the year. The fact that i gave birth, i nearly died, i found out something big i couldn't believe can happen and I became a mom and though I'm not perfect, i try to be... And everything in my life now is all about Kali... Its just funny when i see people my age having fun and party like crazy... I miss that but I wouldn't trade what happen to me this past year for that... I had my chance and i did good so now i just love being a mom...

Good night everyone! Happy birthday to me :) and ofcourse to Ate pebs too:)

awake and bored so I'm blogging

i fell asleep as i let the lil one go to sleep earlier and now i'm wide awake. I should really hit the bed again but I forgot to check a lot of things online that i'm here in front of my PC.

Anyways, i dreamt about being Home. Its just funny that me and my were arguing. Its like i was never married and I'm just in college/HS that she can make me do things the way she wants it done rather than me doing what I want...

These days, that can never happen. yes she tells me to do this and that and we'd end up arguing because I'm hardheaded and i get so irritated by it. Hey! you cant blame me, i've been married for almost 4 years now... haha Moms! you can never change them... and i love her to death

Oh well, what i want to say is that I really miss home. The event where it took place may not be there when i go visit next year. Unless i go home January w/c is impossible... Nothings been finalize back home yet but if the pen hit that paper w/ one signature, a timer will start and the place where i grew up may soon be built w/ something a lot of people will love. As for us, we're moving far away from all the noise of the city.... I WILL MISS IT ...

I'll turn 27 in a week and 22 years of my life will just be a memory of a pictures or maybe videos. I wish that i could go back and say goodbye to our place before we leave it... Oh yah, i cant say too much details here but if you live in Gensan i think you've heard whats going to happen. Its not final yet but the thought of it happening just makes me sad because I'm here and i cant say goodbye. I have to make priorities thats why i wont go home till before the wedding. Thats reality, unless ofcourse i hit the jackpot w/c is unlikely because I don't buy a ticket!!!haha

oh well, i think i should head back to sleep.... Good night everyone

some thoughts

it was hubby's bday yesterday and all we did was eat out at mac grill for dinner. It was funny, kali cried when the lady sang the italian version of Happy Birthday to bu.... Hay babies, they are just so precious!

I've been trying my luck at PPP for the past 3 days now and still i havent got any! Oh well, i guess i have to stick my face infront of the monitor 24/7 just to get a review... The price of trying to make moolah from writing... Maybe I should just make a book... I have good imagination but it all stops everytime i start writing it down...

We are Bi-Standard, when guys cheat its easy to forget and forgive but when girls cheat, we tend to go Yucky over the situation... But hey to the people who have experience this events in their lives, i think its right for you to feel hurt and betrayed even if this is your mom/dad/grandpa/grandma or just plain your husband... I just hope it will never happen to me, with Gods guidance and help we'll do just fine...

and hey! when GUILT eats you up, its just funny because karma happens and on the years you've fooled your family, you deserve every inch of guilt you feel... and we dont feel sorry for it...

is WaMu filing for bankruptcy too???

Okay hubby told me to take out my money and Kali's off from wamu since they are prolly the next big bank that will file for bankruptcy soon. We've seen how the wall st. reacted w/ what happen to Merrill-Lynch (who's lucky to found B of A to buy them out for 50B) and Lehman Brothers. Now is Wamu gonna be the next? I don't millions let alone tens of thousands of dollars there but what i have there is something I try to save and Kali's savings (who happens to be way more than what I have) and if this is true, I don't want to lose those money.

I am a fan of Wamu, they never gave me headaches like B of A but it seems to me that B of A is the solid one (ofcourse they are, with all their fees that they are asking right?!). So Anyway, i'm wondering if the bank will tell me if they are in trouble coz I want our money and I don't want to lose this because the stupid economy is down.

If they just end the war and focus put the money to our economy, maybe just maybe this wouldn't have happen right?! Haayyyy now it makes me wonder how the next president will solve this. This gov't will pass a lot of prob to the next leader... I hope he's ready for it!

Birth Control PILL

if you have a friend who wants to get b.c. Pills! tell them to stay away from YAZ. MY ob said i'm the 5th patient who got pregnant w/ that pills... They should take it away from the Pharmacy! You take pills to prevent from getting pregnant. Ofcourse babies are blessings but when you dont plan it, it will really hit you off guard... I still cant imagine how i'm able to take care of a baby and a toddler next year but i have faith in God so i'll put everything in his hands... Hopefully Baby #2 wont be as hard as baby #1 (who happens to be spoiled!hehe oh well i have few months before my attention gets divided)...

SO dont take YAZ...take something else... THe TV ads are a bull!!!!

having a hubby who's a chargers fan

it hurts to see when your team is being cheated. 2 plays were taken away from them by the stupid ref. I wonder how much did the broncos pay him just to give the game away to the broncos! Who ever watch it esp. san diegan will trully say that we won this game.... And what about the broncos fans and players?! they are mocking the chargers like they deserve the win when they knew by heart that WE HAD IT... stupid ref! NFL is dirty... tsk tsk

crying

my god i was reading something on my email and i just cant stop crying. Then i was chatting w/ a friend discussing some things about life, and i was crying... man this hormones is killing me, i'm just so emotional wreck i swear!!!! Oh well, who can blame me when i'm 10 weeks pregnant right?!

so i will blog here

I'm thinking of leaving my multiply as my site for pictures and start blogging here or i can always copy paste this one there too. Anyways, I discover something fishy the other day that i told my cousins about. Now the issue became big that people are mad and hurt...

I ask my cousins if it was wrong of me to warn them about it but they said i cared thats why i said something. Oh well, it wasn't my fault. Here's the odd thing too, WTH did that account add me for if they didnt want to get in trouble... Such idiots but i think "he" think we're the idiot one thats why he sent the invites...

Like rubbing insult to injury so NOW, everyone is reacting. THis fool should stop and i think "SHE" should wake up because people around her love her but that fool will always be a pest in her life...

1st pocketbook i've ever read

Do you remember the very first pocketbook you've ever read? I do. It was the 1st book publish for SWEET DREAMS by Barbara Conklin called P.S. I love you. I remember borrowing this book from my cousin who happens to collect sweet dreams and this one was publish on the same year I was born.

I remember reading this 182pages book for 3 days and i was crying like crazy when i finish it...But anyways, this book means a lot to me since this one made me love reading so i decided to look it up online and buy it... I couldn't find it on ebay w/c is weird since you find everything there but i didnt lose hope i tried amazon. I found it and read it again! cute book, and what can i say, i cried again..haha

posted: Aug 17, '08 8:04 PM
from: multiply account

the ODDS

When you read literarture of some meds it says that there are 1 out of 1000 people show reaction to this and that. And how could a 99% be really effective when there's 1% possibility that things will get screwed!?

When you not plan something, things happen and it just makes you question how you screwed up when all along you followed the instruction/direction and you never miss a single pill.

Now i'm 1 out of the 1000. You'll get what i'm talking about.

posted: Aug 23, '08 10:51 PM
from: multiply account

I wanna say THANK YOU

to Ate Raquel and Kuya Peewee for Kali's Maclaren Parasol. Since i couldn't buy it here in US, they were kind enough to buy it for me in UK... Thank you guys! I don't have to worry about the sunlight hitting her face/eyes! Lets jus hope she wont break it!hehe

posted: Aug 29, '08 1:53 AM
from: multiply account

BER

in the Philippines, XMAS season starts when month of BER begins. You can hear christmas song on the FM station. You can see department stores beginning to put out the colors of XMAS. If you ask me, XMAS is just superb back home. That's what I miss the most. Even If back then I rarely go shopping for the season, still seeing the spirit of christmas makes my heart just swell up w/ hapiness...

I miss my home even when I made a home here in the US already, its just different... This would be my 5th christmas away from HOME. But things would be different this year, Kali will be able to open her own gifts and with a lil one on the bun, my family is getting bigger.

Atleast i have something to look forward next year. I will finally be able to celebrate it back home. 2009 wait for me. And maybe then my family will be finally complete, we'll finally have that complete family picture we've been yearning for all these years.

To those back home, enjoy the 4 month celebration of xmas. Ours doesnt come till after thanksgiving but hey it isn't too early for me to start listening to xmas songs... Heck! i'm filipino, i could have my tradition!:)

posted:Sep 3, '08 11:18 AM
from: Multiply account

update and carseat issue

When Kali turns 1, I need to change her carseat to the front facing one. The one she got right now is up to 30lbs but i doubt i'll use it for her after she turns one coz she gets bored on it now and I think it's about time for me to go back and seat on the front seat whenever hubby and I go to places. Yes! I've been sitting on the backseat since i had kali coz i keep her company and i make sure that she's not choking or anything.

Not that i put anything hazzardous near her, its just that i got use to it because when i got out from the hospital when i gave birth, the nurse told me to sit at the back w/ the baby. Though my mom usually sit besides Kali when she's with us coz she doesn't like riding in front, still most of the time, i am right next to kali...

Well I'll prolly have 5 months after kali's 1st bday to enjoy sitting in front then I'll prolly sit next to them again after that... Oh well, we will need a bigger car, 2010 just wait! Things happen when you least expect it... Well God have better plans for us :) so I have to be thankful for the blessings...

Anyways, i've been browsing for some convertible car seats... Read review from consumer report. Britax got the #1 review just like the Chicco KeyFit infant carseat... So now, i know what I need. I'm just lucky that my F-i-L promise to get us this, just like he bought Kali's carseat... So i don't really have to worry about it, but I can only purchase it online... Since they don't really have it on the store unless ofcourse I'll settle for something less...

It's quite pricey but we're talking about safety right?! and I cant thank enough our Accord for being reliable all this time... No wonder my hubby's family loves HONDA... My chicco however will be retiring for more or less 6 months then I have to use it again... Thank God i take care of Kali's stuff, most of her stuff looks brand new still and the fact that i didnt give anything away, I can use it again!!!!

Well, tomorrows the big day. I finally got that appointment i've been waiting for. After over 2 weeks of waiting, i can finally see the doctor. Hopefully i'll find out the exact date of the due date tomorrow.... Hayyy I just hate the health care here in US... I wish whoever wins in the upcoming election have plans to improve the health care here.... I may not be able to vote but hopefully before this year ends, i can fully pledge to be a citizen of this country... (i hope hope and hope!)

posted: Sep 8, '08 10:55 PM
from: multiply account.

feeling sick

I think I ate a lot today and i just feel sick. I normally eat a lot but i havent felt like this... I'm drinking gatorade coz i was craving for something sweet and I have a choice bet. this and arizona iced tea w/c i cant really take since it has gensing...

I just finish watching the VMA's, it would have been cool if Britney performed instead of that 4 sentence she just said... But I'd say she's looking good. Can't believe she pull it off in less than a year. I hope she'll never have a breakdown again


dated: Sep 7, '08 11:32 PM
from: Multiply account

nagging

I grew up in an enviroment where people nag each other. I said when i grew up i will not follow such path but I'm wrong. How you brought up in this world plays a big part of who you are. I still hate nagging but I do it. And I sure want to stop that way Kali won't have such example.

But it is hard not to nag when your partner in life is such a pain in the butt. He hates certain things and tells me what is it but can he even ask himself what are the stuff that he does wrong too???

My husband and I are 3 years apart. I am older. It means that a big part of me adjust to everything. If you want to make your marriage work, you compromise but sometimes the one who's older tend to do more compromise and understanding than the younger ones. And most of the time i just say, SUCK IT UP, you choose this life!

I know i am and will never be the easiest person to deal with. I have hurt so many people in my life and most of it are the ones I know wont leave myside no matter what. But sometimes we had to hurt them to be able to let them know we're now grown up and we have our own life to deal w/ and they as a guidance to us can't decide on our own but I guess everybody have a problems w/ letting go.

Having a great support system helps too! It sure feels great when you have good people around you but sometimes you pretend everything is perfect.

My life is beyond perfect but I choose this. Sometimes I'm in the verge of breaking down and say F*ck off! but I have to stop for a moment and look at my angel face daughter and says, LIFE will be good for you my princess...

anyways, i'm out... :)