Happy Halloween!

Today is my baby's first halloween. We're gonna go out there and do trick or treat for the first time. I'm so excited and I hope my lil princess will enjoy this. Next year there'll be two babies in the house, I plan to go to the Philippines right after halloween for our wedding preparation but I want my lil boy to experience his first halloween here too just like his ate.

I've started listening to xmas songs right when BER started, Hey! i'm from pi and they celebrate xmas that long over there so I dont care what the neighbor says besides they rarely sees us out anyway. Its either we're inside the house or we're out somewhere riding a car...

I still want to go home for New Years but since I just passed my citizenship test, I don't know when I'll have my oath taking to be able to get my passport. NO passport, No chance of going home right?! Oh well... There's always next year but I sorry the desire is still in my heart...

My lil girl have 6 teeth now, im so proud of her! I just want to keep hugging her but she's wiggly and she just want to be left walking around the room w/c is kinda hard for me coz i have to follow her to the bathroom most of the time, she likes that place for some reason...

The baby is growing up so fast but she loves mommy so much, she'll look for me all the time and it just makes me feel so proud that eventhough i am having a hard time raising her (because she's malikot) i'm proud that almost from the moment she was born it was me who watched, fed and bathe her... Except for those times when my inlaws and mom are here to watch her for me but she sleeps with me at the end of the day and just having a lil baby go to your side and look for your heat makes your heart grow big... I love you princess!!!

i wanna go home

i so wanna go home but i cant afford it, its too damn expensive and its breaking my heart because my desire to go home is so big yet i cant go home because it will be selfish of me to insist when we dont have moolah!

venting on why i cant go home

I wanted to go this year after christmas and before the new years. I don't know why but my urge to go home is something i cant deny. Its hard I swear but i don't want to be selfish... For the first time too that i only thought of me and Kali. When i used to always say that if i go home, Nik will have to come to me... I don't know whats going on. Maybe I need a break. A breather from being a mom and pregnant at the same time. Ofcourse its not going to be like the way it ways 2 years ago that I can do whatever i want, this time, i'm pregnant. But hey! all i wanted to do is rest for atleast 3 weeks and eat all the food i've been missing. maybe then i'll gain weight since i have problems on gaining weight on this pregnancy...

But we are talking about a $2500 fare here. I don't want Nik to worry about having too much debt, i swear the less we owe the better and the more we save besides we will have our wedding next year but i don't know. I just really want to go home...

Reality sucks... We can never have it all and I love my husband to burden him on this so i'll just vent out here and hopefully forget about this idea and move on... Besides my hubby got a really nice present for xmas and i just cant wait to open it though for now i'll vent...

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i wish

i have one wish this year and that is to be able to go home before New Years. I dont plan to go home this christmas because I want Kali to celebrate xmas here in US but I wanna have our new year back home but the fares are expensive. I dont want to add more on what we owe because of this but really I wanna go home... I know i cant have this but hey its my wish right... Maybe santa will give me this after all... who knows... i wish!

HA! $2500 to go home?!

I was checking online the prices for plane fare earlier... Man its expensive! Just for me and Kali to be able to go home after xmas and before new years to Gensan would cost us almost $2500.00 so if Nik will come it'd be $4000... Are you kidding me?! Yes i know i wanna go home but for that price, i aint pushing it because for one we cant afford it (the honest truth) and 2nd we need to save for the wedding next year and with another baby coming in the way, we really need to save... Now however, if I win the lottery, that's a different story!!! Haha I wish!!!!

Oh well, we can never have it all right but hey! i'm thankful that my family is healthy (not that i'm healthy... but i'm not complaining)...

So yah, just sharing my thoughts

im tired

doing the same routine everyday is tiring. I'm bored out of my wits. I'm tired w/ everything.... I need a breather but my life right now isn't all about me anymore. I have to think of my baby and the lil angel growing inside me before anything else. I hurt. I'm tired. I don't know what to do anymore....

Its tough when people don't understand what you're going through! I never want this thalassemia. I didnt choose to have this but I have it and I have to live my life w/ it forever, i just wish they understand that even when I try to be normal like everyone else. My life will never be that normal...

I hurt inside, they just don't know... One day I have a feeling i'll just colapse from all of this. Things are things, even when they are expensive but my body can never be okay even with that... I just need to be understood. I just need someone to help me through this. I just need someone who is there...

beauty sleep

I just woke up, i have a lot of bottles to clean and I need to change into my pj's. Not that i'm not on it right now, Kali happens to splatter some carrots on me earlier that's why i need to change.

I like sleeping early and like they said, sleep when the baby sleeps. I try too but its just hard when you do everything yourself.... That's why i try to do things i need to do in the afternoon when hubby gets off from work so i could sleep early but today was a lazy day...

Gosh, heat wave is coming up again... I've been loving the weather for the past 2 days and now I have to deal w/ the 90's temp again! I guess i can't let Kali use her overalls yet (though i've been doing that for the past 2 days - she looks so damn cute on it!)...

I can't really wait for winter time to come. I hate having to deal w/ the heat if you ask me, that's why frisco's weather is just the best but i've heard from my friend that its been hot there too but hey! they barely feel the heat if you ask me. That's what i love about frisco. You can count the number of days it gets hot over there than over here... Oh well, we live in sunny california!

I should be sleeping again... Well, i'm gonna go start cleaning the bottles now.... I got over 2 hours of sleep already so I'll hit the bed after (hoping KALI wont wake up)... Hayyyy this is beauty sleep!:) Anyways, ttfn!:) NYT!

The Body Shop

Two years ago my mother-in-law got into an accident. The moment we heard the news we were all in shock. At first thing came to our mind is that is mama okay and then the next, did someone get hurt... Good thing it only involve her car and a slippery freeway and no one was injured except for her car. It was a big one that we thought it couldn't be repaired. Thank God for the AUTO BODY SHOP they were able to repair the damage in my mother-in-laws SUV and it runs like the way it did prior to the accident. With affordable rates & friendly people who helps you access the damage and gives you advices, you'd never ask for anything more. They take care of you...


Accidents hurts, it hurts people and it hurts your pocket but with downey body shop you know you are being taken care of. I know where i'll go when i need any bodyworks on my car, our experience with downey body shop were excellent that I can recommend to my friends and family their work of art!

turning 27

OMG, i can't believe i'm 27! It seems that time had past by so fast that i just woke up and realize i'm 27. Nothing had change except that at 27 i'm a mom. Though career wise i havent really accomplish anything, i'd say i'm pretty proud of myself being a hands on mom... Next year, well it would be different. I'll have 2 kids, haha i wonder how i'll do by then.

I'd be lying if i tell you that i'm not struggling here. I am. Its hard being a mom to a 10 month old baby, a wife (to a [thankfully] not demanding husband!) and pregnant at the same time... I know i know you'd say i'm a fool getting myself in this situation because to be honest, i have asked myself how in the world did it happen when we were using protection but i guess when its God's will, its happens so i'm just thankful for the blessing. What a wonderful bday gift indeed...

Physically i'd tell you that i'm really tired. I just reach my 13th-week today and i have 27 (what a coincidence!) more weeks to go before i'd meet this lil' angel in me and I'm just excited. I do hope my body cooperates because right now, i feel like crap. I have this headache thats been going on for the past 3 days now and well I feel so stress...

I didnt really ask any gift from Nik this year. I told him to save all the gifts i'm entitled too for the whole year (so there's valentines day,mom's day, bday, anniv, & xmas) to just one gift and I can only get it on xmas! hehe so i'm looking forward to that and I know he's saving for our wed next year too! so i'm trying not to bug the hell out of him when it comes to spending, unless ofcourse it has something to do w/ diapers, wipes and milk!

A lot had happen over the year. The fact that i gave birth, i nearly died, i found out something big i couldn't believe can happen and I became a mom and though I'm not perfect, i try to be... And everything in my life now is all about Kali... Its just funny when i see people my age having fun and party like crazy... I miss that but I wouldn't trade what happen to me this past year for that... I had my chance and i did good so now i just love being a mom...

Good night everyone! Happy birthday to me :) and ofcourse to Ate pebs too:)

awake and bored so I'm blogging

i fell asleep as i let the lil one go to sleep earlier and now i'm wide awake. I should really hit the bed again but I forgot to check a lot of things online that i'm here in front of my PC.

Anyways, i dreamt about being Home. Its just funny that me and my were arguing. Its like i was never married and I'm just in college/HS that she can make me do things the way she wants it done rather than me doing what I want...

These days, that can never happen. yes she tells me to do this and that and we'd end up arguing because I'm hardheaded and i get so irritated by it. Hey! you cant blame me, i've been married for almost 4 years now... haha Moms! you can never change them... and i love her to death

Oh well, what i want to say is that I really miss home. The event where it took place may not be there when i go visit next year. Unless i go home January w/c is impossible... Nothings been finalize back home yet but if the pen hit that paper w/ one signature, a timer will start and the place where i grew up may soon be built w/ something a lot of people will love. As for us, we're moving far away from all the noise of the city.... I WILL MISS IT ...

I'll turn 27 in a week and 22 years of my life will just be a memory of a pictures or maybe videos. I wish that i could go back and say goodbye to our place before we leave it... Oh yah, i cant say too much details here but if you live in Gensan i think you've heard whats going to happen. Its not final yet but the thought of it happening just makes me sad because I'm here and i cant say goodbye. I have to make priorities thats why i wont go home till before the wedding. Thats reality, unless ofcourse i hit the jackpot w/c is unlikely because I don't buy a ticket!!!haha

oh well, i think i should head back to sleep.... Good night everyone

some thoughts

it was hubby's bday yesterday and all we did was eat out at mac grill for dinner. It was funny, kali cried when the lady sang the italian version of Happy Birthday to bu.... Hay babies, they are just so precious!

I've been trying my luck at PPP for the past 3 days now and still i havent got any! Oh well, i guess i have to stick my face infront of the monitor 24/7 just to get a review... The price of trying to make moolah from writing... Maybe I should just make a book... I have good imagination but it all stops everytime i start writing it down...

We are Bi-Standard, when guys cheat its easy to forget and forgive but when girls cheat, we tend to go Yucky over the situation... But hey to the people who have experience this events in their lives, i think its right for you to feel hurt and betrayed even if this is your mom/dad/grandpa/grandma or just plain your husband... I just hope it will never happen to me, with Gods guidance and help we'll do just fine...

and hey! when GUILT eats you up, its just funny because karma happens and on the years you've fooled your family, you deserve every inch of guilt you feel... and we dont feel sorry for it...

is WaMu filing for bankruptcy too???

Okay hubby told me to take out my money and Kali's off from wamu since they are prolly the next big bank that will file for bankruptcy soon. We've seen how the wall st. reacted w/ what happen to Merrill-Lynch (who's lucky to found B of A to buy them out for 50B) and Lehman Brothers. Now is Wamu gonna be the next? I don't millions let alone tens of thousands of dollars there but what i have there is something I try to save and Kali's savings (who happens to be way more than what I have) and if this is true, I don't want to lose those money.

I am a fan of Wamu, they never gave me headaches like B of A but it seems to me that B of A is the solid one (ofcourse they are, with all their fees that they are asking right?!). So Anyway, i'm wondering if the bank will tell me if they are in trouble coz I want our money and I don't want to lose this because the stupid economy is down.

If they just end the war and focus put the money to our economy, maybe just maybe this wouldn't have happen right?! Haayyyy now it makes me wonder how the next president will solve this. This gov't will pass a lot of prob to the next leader... I hope he's ready for it!

Birth Control PILL

if you have a friend who wants to get b.c. Pills! tell them to stay away from YAZ. MY ob said i'm the 5th patient who got pregnant w/ that pills... They should take it away from the Pharmacy! You take pills to prevent from getting pregnant. Ofcourse babies are blessings but when you dont plan it, it will really hit you off guard... I still cant imagine how i'm able to take care of a baby and a toddler next year but i have faith in God so i'll put everything in his hands... Hopefully Baby #2 wont be as hard as baby #1 (who happens to be spoiled!hehe oh well i have few months before my attention gets divided)...

SO dont take YAZ...take something else... THe TV ads are a bull!!!!

having a hubby who's a chargers fan

it hurts to see when your team is being cheated. 2 plays were taken away from them by the stupid ref. I wonder how much did the broncos pay him just to give the game away to the broncos! Who ever watch it esp. san diegan will trully say that we won this game.... And what about the broncos fans and players?! they are mocking the chargers like they deserve the win when they knew by heart that WE HAD IT... stupid ref! NFL is dirty... tsk tsk

crying

my god i was reading something on my email and i just cant stop crying. Then i was chatting w/ a friend discussing some things about life, and i was crying... man this hormones is killing me, i'm just so emotional wreck i swear!!!! Oh well, who can blame me when i'm 10 weeks pregnant right?!

so i will blog here

I'm thinking of leaving my multiply as my site for pictures and start blogging here or i can always copy paste this one there too. Anyways, I discover something fishy the other day that i told my cousins about. Now the issue became big that people are mad and hurt...

I ask my cousins if it was wrong of me to warn them about it but they said i cared thats why i said something. Oh well, it wasn't my fault. Here's the odd thing too, WTH did that account add me for if they didnt want to get in trouble... Such idiots but i think "he" think we're the idiot one thats why he sent the invites...

Like rubbing insult to injury so NOW, everyone is reacting. THis fool should stop and i think "SHE" should wake up because people around her love her but that fool will always be a pest in her life...

1st pocketbook i've ever read

Do you remember the very first pocketbook you've ever read? I do. It was the 1st book publish for SWEET DREAMS by Barbara Conklin called P.S. I love you. I remember borrowing this book from my cousin who happens to collect sweet dreams and this one was publish on the same year I was born.

I remember reading this 182pages book for 3 days and i was crying like crazy when i finish it...But anyways, this book means a lot to me since this one made me love reading so i decided to look it up online and buy it... I couldn't find it on ebay w/c is weird since you find everything there but i didnt lose hope i tried amazon. I found it and read it again! cute book, and what can i say, i cried again..haha

posted: Aug 17, '08 8:04 PM
from: multiply account

the ODDS

When you read literarture of some meds it says that there are 1 out of 1000 people show reaction to this and that. And how could a 99% be really effective when there's 1% possibility that things will get screwed!?

When you not plan something, things happen and it just makes you question how you screwed up when all along you followed the instruction/direction and you never miss a single pill.

Now i'm 1 out of the 1000. You'll get what i'm talking about.

posted: Aug 23, '08 10:51 PM
from: multiply account

I wanna say THANK YOU

to Ate Raquel and Kuya Peewee for Kali's Maclaren Parasol. Since i couldn't buy it here in US, they were kind enough to buy it for me in UK... Thank you guys! I don't have to worry about the sunlight hitting her face/eyes! Lets jus hope she wont break it!hehe

posted: Aug 29, '08 1:53 AM
from: multiply account