Facebook wars

This has been goin on in facebook world.... Crazy if u ask me!


Christine Jme is tired of friend/s (old and new) stirring up the pot, just make sure that whatever you're doing wont hit you back, coz i do believe in karma and the saying of "what goes around, comes around".
Yesterday at 7:50am via Mobile Web · Comment · Like
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Edna Salazar kick them in the butt bebe......smile nalang dyan. mwah
Yesterday at 9:08am · Like

Christine Jme yes ill keep on smilling, tta Eds. ;)
Yesterday at 9:33am · Like

Anna Theresa Salazar-Cataluna Just say fuck it if they stab u at the back.... When u off? Lets chika2 i miss u, u know!
Yesterday at 9:45am · Like · 

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor Cheer Up! Dont worry. What goes around, comes around, that's why you don't do anything to others, what you don't want others do unto you :)
Yesterday at 11:03am · Like

Christine Jme @ Anna: im off now mamz :) miss you more!!!

@ Mylin: I am very aware of that quotation/saying, trust me. All they need to do is reflect/check their inner self. :)
Yesterday at 11:27am · Like

Anna Theresa Salazar-Cataluna Im gonna turn on my mj will call u, pm me again ur num.... I have a feeling i know who u meant here mamz! Lol were sister from different parents right?lol
Yesterday at 11:30am · Like · 

Christine Jme hahahah ;) yes we are ! :) i'll pm it now .
Yesterday at 11:32am · Like

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor Very true, they have to look into there "inner self" and see for themselves. :) very simple christine, i think its better for you to talk to that person straight in his/her face and hoping everything will be fine :)
what do you think friend?
Yesterday at 11:32am · Like

Christine Jme I agree :)
Yesterday at 11:38am · Like

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor your done work? are you at home now?
Yesterday at 11:38am · Like

Christine Jme @ Mylin: Exactly,what I told you on you Status last Friday.
Yesterday at 11:39am · Like

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor Exactly, that's what i am saying, you should talk to him/her straight
Yesterday at 11:47am · Like

Christine Jme yeap im done work & at home. :)
Yesterday at 12:05pm · Like

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor I am at home as well, finally my day off after working12 days straight. i wish i had this day off during my bday. man! it took me 2 months to planned for that day, even if it was stressful, still it was a success. Thanks to Evan who helped me, brings down the stress i had.
Yesterday at 12:13pm · Like

Ana Kanarek Christine - totally agree with you 1000% . I believe in karma too. What goes around, comes around so people better beware. And girl, dont stand down to anyone. I dont. 8)
Yesterday at 1:04pm · Like ·  3 people

Rhett Blancaflor Pelaez Jr. hi cuz menchu here! twas nice to hear your voice... didn't realize how much i miss making chika with you... just remember what i said... mwah! love you!
Yesterday at 6:02pm · Like

Mylin Mai Petalcorin Taylor An advice to you dear friend, talk to the person straight in their faces and things will all be fine :) what do you think?
Yesterday at 6:52pm · Like

Evan Taylor OK I have had Enough of this! 
Christine What you did at Mylin's party was very bad! 
To all you that do not know what this is about. This all started at Mylin's 30th Birthday.

Mylin got permission from the restaurant owners to move and rearrange the tables. Last year the tables were separated and Mylin's and my family was segregated from our friends. And were not able to talk to one another. It almost felt like three different parties. This year Mylin wanted all guests to feel welcome at her party. So she moved the tables. 

I was not aware of her plan and at first I didn't thing there was enough room for all the tables. But I trusted that Mylin know what she was doing and went along with it. She later showed me the plans that she had drawn out of the layout of the tables and she knew exactly how it was going to work.
The table layout turned out great! I think every one felt like they were all part of the same party.
Yesterday at 8:10pm · Like

Evan Taylor But as Mylin was moving the table around, both Anthony and Christine kept on telling Mylin that it was not going to work. You guys kept on Mylin, till she could not take anymore and snapped back at you. So Mylin and I moved the tables by our selfs till others came along and began to help us with the moving. 

It was not totally apparent at first what Christine was talking badly about Mylin to the other guests till one of the guests came up to me and asked what was wrong with Mylin. I was shocked. Mylin was happy and enjoying her birthday party. There was nothing wrong at that time. I asked what do you mean that there was something wrong. They told me that Christine had told them that Mylin was in a bad mood and Snapped at her earlier in the evening. I really did not think much of it at the time. I thought Christine was just upset at the time and commented to one of the guests. But the next day Mylin found out from many of her friends at the party that Christine had gone around and told them the same thing. At that time I brought up that one of the guests also said the same thing. We were both shocked and felt betrayed. Your our close friend and to find out your gossiping around and telling Mylin's friend ill words about Mylin on her own Birthday parry. This makes me very upset.
Yesterday at 8:10pm · Like

Evan Taylor This has now sparked another Stupid Facebook War of words. Mylin only wanted to leave a message to leave a message on face book to give you a hint that she was upset and wanted to keep this anemones and wanted you Christine to come forward in privet and talk to her about this. I cant always say I understand this Facebook thing, but I guess thisis a way to communicate to others what they feel. 

Christine I have allot of respect for you and Anthony but when I found out what you did at Mylin's party I was shocked! Why would you say things like that to others. Mylin only snapped at you for a second. She was happy the rest of the night and didn't think about it any more. But you go on all through the night and advise as far as Mylin can tell most of the guests about the insolent.

Can you and talk to mylin on the phone or better yet talk in person about what has happened. Letting this continue is very bad karma! And not good on our friendship. 

All Mylin wanted was a great 30th Birthday party for her friends and family.
Yesterday at 8:11pm · Like

Evan Taylor Oh and a message to Anna Theresa Salazar-Cataluna. Will you Shut your mouth on things you know nothing about! I really don't know who you are but you don't seem to be a very nice person to pass judgment on some one when your not even in the same country! Also if you have something to say, SAY IT to the person you have a "feeling" about.
Yesterday at 8:12pm · Like

Evan Taylor !!! OH For all those that are reading READ EVERYTHING I said! I know its long an its cut up but there was allot I had to get off my chest and face book could only alow for a small anount at a time. This is really pissing me off now!
Yesterday at 8:16pm · Like

Christine Jme Okay Evan, first of all I didn't go around and say bad words about mylin. I warned Steve, Megan when they arrive not to put more tension on mylin since she will get more upset & I didn't want that to happen on her bday. I don't know who said something else to both of you. When infact, I helped entertaining mylin with her Filipino guests who were left unattended. I introduced myself,that was it. Now with Riezel, I just told her that I was upset & shock How mylin acted at a public place. She doesn't have to slam the chair on the table while Anthony was just explaining that she should ask for the waiters help to arrange the table & chairs.

Secondly, why did mylin started posting blogs here in facebook when she can easily talk to me. Huh?!? I asked her who was badmouthing her and she tXtd back it's fine,don't worry. I told her to confront the person and she didn't! So, I assumed it wasn't me she was blogging about. Then, the next night she started again about asking help to a friend when getting stranded. That ticked me off and said to myself, that's it! She did this every year. 
I'm sick of this stupidity!!!
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Christine Jme @ Menchu: thanks cuz, love you too!
5 hours ago · Like

Anna Theresa Salazar-Cataluna Wow im soo sikat! A message to you back Mr evan who you are, can you please reread my comment and think what the F is wrong with what i said.... And where's the judgement there???? So from what im reading now since i just logged in its your wife and my sister from another mother who got a rift! Thanks a whole lot for making all 751 friends of Jme know that....

And from a person who doesnt even know me, i dont give a damn if you think im not a very nice person because you guys are not my friends and for the hell of it i dont judge people so i guess you should be the one to say "SHUT IT" on your own mouth and dude, you're a guy! Didnt you ever had lesson 101 on not to fight girls?

And while were at it, tell that person who said fuck you bitch on your wife's site the same thing because he/she doesnt know what happen and since u just said it out loud here on jmes site that your wife is refering to my friend well my friend rerspect some respect from them too... Got that? 

Thank u very much.
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applying for a job

so my husband told me to apply for a job. I have no idea why he wants me to apply for a certain job. Told him i need to have 2 years experience and blah blah blah and he said just apply so you'll be in the system so i said, i applied there before so i should be in the system...

i have no idea why he wants me to get a job. And if i do get hired, i'll be thankful but who the heck will watch my kids? and if sooo does this mean i'm not going to school this coming fall sem anymore? Okay husband dearest, figure it out because right now I have no idea how i can leave the kids and knowing you, i know you cant handle them for a long span of time...

oh well, Lord whatever is your plan for me, let me know for i'm confuse... So good luck to me. I just hope whatever happens, my kids wont end up w/ a sitter. anyways, thats it for not sooo yah LATER!

La lang

My kids are watching the barnyard cartoons at the moment while having some milk so i took the chance to blog since my kids can be sooo kulit! I'm thinking of how i can make myself productive, i have gained 3 lbs again and im hating it! I should start on a diet but im sooo damn lazy to do something about it... Counting calories? Pssshhhh i doubt it will work on me...

I miss my friends, i miss just having to chika2 with them but like all the rest, life moves on and we grow up but that doesnt mean we lose 'em, its just that we all start having family and live far away from one another.... And having kids that i watch full time is hard of me to go online and chat with them but we do every now and then...

When we're young, we so wish to be older but when we're older we wish to be young again. Haha we can never be satisfied eh??? Im thinking of having some business but i dunno what, i'm no good at crafts and i definitely dont have art so i really dont know what business i can do but i wanna be able to have one.... Hmmm gottat start pounding my head for some ideas...

Anyway, will update again next time, kids are getting cranky.... Ttfn as my friend allen would say :) so yah..... Later peeps!

Just say it....

blogging with Mr. LiPad and trying out the apple case i got and see whether i like it or not...

My mom and i have patch things up, but another person seems to be mad at me for some reason... I just hate people who are plastic. I mean come on, tell me if you have problems with me and dont be sooo "taray" and "pilosopo". If i done you wrong well then im sorry but i cant recall when i ever said something to ever offend you. Or even get you irritated because from this day forward, i am seriously considering to just get our of your way and i hope you do the same thing...

I miss having a life actually, i miss having my freedom. I wish i started having a career before i had kids but since thats not the case i will make sure ill be good at what i do. Yes i love being a mom, i love my kids more than ever and i have a wonderful though not perfect husband (though he tries to be perfect - lets face it, no ones perfect... Im not either)... But sometimes when some people makes me feel so damn useless and makes me think "WHY" In so many form.... Oh well, lets just hope we win lottery then maybe i will gain such respect!

Yes its all about money. That i dont have i can say so i guess they think i'm a piece of scum because that i dont have... If i am being paid with what i do with my kids, seriously I'd be rich! But what i do with my kids are priceless and they cant take that away from me.... I feel useless at times but i know in my heart im one heck of a lucky person to be able to do the things i do with my kids....

So if you have some problem with me, why cant you just say it.... Atleast be honest and lets move forward.... Someday, one day my dreams will come true!

ayPad LiPad

i can't believe i never bought an kindle or sony e-reader before. I mean where was i? ebooks are the best but I will still buy some books in hard copy particularly in hardbound to collect 'em but not the ones that i just read in one night and end up in the chest waiting to be shipped out to gensan, unless ofcourse I'll make myself a library in this house... Who knows!

I love my iPad, i don't particular go online and browse there though every now and then i go on facebook and twitter coz i still love the convinience of my lappy tappy, my cool nettop and our old but reliable (esp. on my magicjack) pc.... And aside from my special edition u2 iPod classic and nik's 3g iPhone, ayPad LiPad is my first MAC though its not really considered as MAC, you know what i mean... i just love love love it! Well because i read books and now, i can just download free books and never run out of things to read.

And ofcourse my Kids loves it, they want to play w/ it though i'm kinda "maarte" right now coz i still havent got a case for it yet. Yes i know i should have bought but man it cost as $650++ for that thing, so i gotta take it easy you know:)

I want an iPhone 4 but im asking myself why? i wouldn't really play w/ it much since i have this mr. LiPad w/ me now, so whats the use of getting an iphone? one thing i can say, my epix is starting to be retarded but its doin its job and I don't really text/call much here in US.

Anyway, i decided to go back to my oldschool site (multiply, and this, still debating about friendster lol) and start writing again, and hoping that it will get me back my sanity and just write whatever i think. And try hard to post least on FB. That site, gets you in trouble for sure....

Ok... gotta hit the sack, its almost 2am here.... nyt nyt world!:)

bitterness

For as long as i can remember, I have done nothing but to follow orders and please them. It felt like as I grow up, i've age 10 years or so just to be the responsible person they want me to be but then again. I cant always please them...

I've listen, i said what i thing but they have ways of twisting things around. When i give, i don't expect to have something in return. Though they say they don't do that, but why do they make me feel that they are counting the things i've receive fr. them??

I'm so tired of it. I finally said, F* it, ill go on isolation fr. them, delete "." in facebook and move forward and after venting out, pretend nothing happened and move on. But like i said, "." has a way to make you feel crappy about yourself.

if you say sorry. say sorry period. Don't do things like make the certain person feel bad about herself because I'm telling its getting old and i'm sick and tired of it. They put the word "bitterness" in my world. They introduced me to it. so why cant they just say sorry, admit they were wrong and that's it. Stop making me feel bad because I'm trying to ignore feeling bad anymore....

They still don't get it. I guess that's how it is when you've been taken for granted since you're there always for them they think that whatever crappy things they do to you, you'll always be there. Enough is enough...

I'm sorry God if i'm being so hard and I know I'm no angel but please understand that I hurt inside and just let me heal in my own time... And I hope and pray the trend will stop from now on...

peace... I'm out :)

Let it happen God.

i'm worried over something. I wish i have control over it but i don't. I don't know whats gonna happen to it but i'm hoping that we get a response ASAP. I wish things arent that complicated. I love my family, they mean so much to me but there are things that we dont have control over and as much as we wanna take over and do something, things aren't that easy... Please God, let there be response soon. Let things move forward ASAP. I want my complete family on the day we renew our vows in front of you.... pls pls pls pls....

i hate i hate i hate

Why do i worry about other peoples problem?! Seriously i'm so tired of it having to think about something that's not even my problem... Hayyy....

addicted to PJ's sandwich!haha

i've been addicted to peanut butter and jelly sandwich for the past 3 weeks or so now. Though there's an outbreak of salmonela on peanut butter, not all brands of PB's were affected so I wasn't that worried and besides, the PBJ's spread had been in our fridge since last year and NO its not expired yet.

Anyways, i check on how much calories i've been taking before i sleep. I eat about 600-700cal (PBJ's sandwich +Milk) Dang! I'll be super fat if i keep this up, not that i eat a lot anyways, its just that i dont get to burn this stuff because I'm mostly sleeping after I eat this. Not right away but still i don't do any activities.

But its hard to fall asleep w/o eating this stuff.Haha its weird how i started liking this all of a sudden...

Anyways, other news. I'll have 10 weeks to go before i pop #2. I have a name in my head, still trying to argue w/ hubby to agree with me like we did with #1. So we'll see.... Hayyy i miss home... I cant wait to go home later this year!!!! first of though, i have to get a passport. Dammit! it would cost me $100 for that. Oh well, i should really get it over with...

well, just updating so g2g... ttfn

Happy New Year Everyone!!!

May 2009 Bring us more luck, love, peace and happiness.... HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I'm 26 weeks!

time flies so fast that i cant believe that i'm almost done w/ my 2nd trimester. I'll be 6 months pregnant next monday, having 13 weeks to go and will enter the 3rd trimester... Wow in 13 weeks i'll have a new baby in my arms... I don't know how kali will take it, i just hope everything will be fine.

I still have lots of things that i need to buy particularly baby's clothes. I am having a boy so most clothes of kali cant be worn by baby #2...Hehe I have a name on my head but still havent decided if whether or not i'm naming him that or what...

Hayyy having a baby is expensive, i'm pretty sure this would be the last. After this i'm having it cut out... If i'm just as healthy and normal like everyone else i wouldn't have to worry about this but i'm not and i know that so I'm taking actions...

I'm planning on putting Kali on the crib after New Years, but im doubtful if she'll sleep there...we'll see... Anyways, its late so gotta go!

i had fun this xmas BUT...

it was lame coz people went to sleep early like 7ish or 8ish?! What a way to celebrate christmas... That's why no matter what, no one can beat xmas in gensan!!!! I miss it... next year, wait for me!!!!

Happy birthday baby jesus!!!!

Belated Merry Xmas everyone!

venting again

I am so pissed at a certain someone right now! I don't care if i don't even talk to him ever in my life besides, I never ask him any favors, he's the one who always ask favors or even ask for pabili! F*ck it... Grrr... and the nerve of hanging up the phone on me! I swear... A kid who's 10 years younger than him even knows what manners is... Grrrrr....

He never do good anyways, he does and its just an act for asking something... HA! 29 years old and yet he doesn't know responsibility... what an ass!

blogging late

I wonder why i always blog late, maybe because this is the only time i have for myself and its quiet...anyways, tomorrows THE DAY... I've been looking forward to this for a long time and my golly, thanks to my hubby for making it possible... I love you bu!

I'm still sick, colds are almost gone but i have an annoying cough, throat is uber itchy and i just pee whenever I cough w/c is really annoying... ANyways, i have to get Kali's stuff ready so we can leave early later so ttfn!!!

4 years married!

We just had our 4th year anniversary yesterday. Though we didnt really do anything special, we attend our friends wedding in San Diego... It was fun but i was starting to get sick so i wasn't really feeling well... OMG! my dress was so short, thank god it was cold, i had to wear my coat the whole time!haha And well, we left Kali w/ my inlaws but we miss her terribly. I guess that's how it is when you have kids, you have fun yet your mind will still be left if they are ok or what...

She was cranky around 8ish according to my SIL and kept saying MAMA and pointing upstairs, she thought i was upstairs being lazy and leaving her to my inlaws...Haha poor kali... I love that munchkin to death i swear...

Anyways, i'm sharing a pic of me and hubby w/ the bride and groom....

its late gotta hit my sack! ttfn!:)

my lil one is 1 now!

And so my baby turned one over the weekend... Hayyy they grow up so fast... I kinda miss the lil one you can carry around w/o worrying about the food you feed them, now however i have hard time feeding this lil munchkin who happens to be uber hyper most of the time...

It almost 230am and i'm up and awake. Why?! coz i had to wash her bottles, HA! motherhood... I've done this a lot of time already so its so not new to me but how i wish i don't have to worry about her bottles...

Which makes me bitter about parents having yaya back in pi... haha how spoiled they are... I was told i don't really need to sterilize her bottles but just to make sure, i do it every night... And now that i change her milk to Next Step, i'm hoping this lil one will grow more....

In 4 months I will have another lil one coming up. It won't be easy handling 2 infants. yes my lil munchkin is still consider infant by then. And well, she'll always be a baby to me too. And i promise myself that just because she and her bro are so close by age, i will make sure that she is still a baby and i'd make both of them my priority...

Anyways, i really need to hit my sack again... so ttfn

problems

sometimes when you have a problem, its better to just keep to yourself than saying it out loud to people that way no one expect more of you. Though most of the time it makes you feel better when you get to share it to friends...

I don't know myself anymore, i'm lost. :(

feeling ugly... just thinking

I've been looking at my old pictures and i cant believe i look like that then. Now i look so plain. I don't even have the urge to fix myself. I brush my hair, put a clip and then tie it in the back... I was never maarte in my life, but since giving birth. I don't even think of myself anymore.

The moment i wake up, i'd be wearing pj's by the end of the day, i'm still wearing pj's.... I'm thinking of going out more but w/ a baby to tag along all the time (well i cant leave her alone at the house)and the gas prices up (good thing its under 2.50 now) i feel that staying at home is better than goin to places...

I miss my old self. I got so much compliment when i went home 2 and half years ago. I never felt so good when i finally felt that i'm being appreciated.... Not that looks matters but hey it does boost out your confidence right?!

I look at my closet, i have tons of clothes but those doesnt even fit me anymore. Those are my pre-baby clothes and though they all look new to me, still even if i try it wont fit me no more... So I'd wait till i'd pop out this second one and hopefully go back to my pre-baby body...

I need new pants and jeans but i'm the kind of person who's practical. I dont want to buy any because i know i wont wear it afterwards but my jeans are basically tight on me and the one and only maternity jeans i have kinda looks funny to me now... And to think this would be my last pregnancy, yes I'm going to get ligation afterward since I don't think my body can handle more than 2 pregnancy or let alone watch 2 babies grows up...

Anyways, the bottom line, i'm feeling ugly. I look haggard. I need rest, i want to eat a lot of food that i cant find here and the whole point to this is that I wanna go home to Gensan even for a month but I cant.

Not just fare wise but other people's experience can make people be negative on things so as long as i'm pregnant. And since i havent done my oath taking yet so no new passport, I cant go home... Next year is just a year away but heck its too long, i'm afraid i'd look 10 years older by then... No i'm not vain but i'm just stating facts here... So hopefully i'll find peace with myself and start caring about how i look like.... Maybe that will happen on of these days...

Elections Over, Thank God!

no more bickering from each parties!

So now that Obama won [Congrats Sen. Obama & Sen. Biden], we'll see where he leads this country... Will he able to save us from this recession or are we going there?! Lets hope and pray he'll do great, besides the guy deserve this.... He has a lot to prove a lot so where do this CHANGE leads us?!

Congrats to Sen. McCain, that speech was great!!!! that's how all losers should be, and whats up w/ the crowd in Phoenix?!

i'm no expert on politics, besides I hate it but this election was historical. First African-American President eh?! tsk tsk lets just hope it wont create chaos, besides there are still racist in this country...

stressful Life

i am 27 and i should not be getting stress but I am so stress that i might blow into pieces. I swear i hate drama but people seems to love drama but heck I HATE it... and i just cant break down because i have a lil gril w/ me... Damn this life.

Happy Halloween!

Today is my baby's first halloween. We're gonna go out there and do trick or treat for the first time. I'm so excited and I hope my lil princess will enjoy this. Next year there'll be two babies in the house, I plan to go to the Philippines right after halloween for our wedding preparation but I want my lil boy to experience his first halloween here too just like his ate.

I've started listening to xmas songs right when BER started, Hey! i'm from pi and they celebrate xmas that long over there so I dont care what the neighbor says besides they rarely sees us out anyway. Its either we're inside the house or we're out somewhere riding a car...

I still want to go home for New Years but since I just passed my citizenship test, I don't know when I'll have my oath taking to be able to get my passport. NO passport, No chance of going home right?! Oh well... There's always next year but I sorry the desire is still in my heart...

My lil girl have 6 teeth now, im so proud of her! I just want to keep hugging her but she's wiggly and she just want to be left walking around the room w/c is kinda hard for me coz i have to follow her to the bathroom most of the time, she likes that place for some reason...

The baby is growing up so fast but she loves mommy so much, she'll look for me all the time and it just makes me feel so proud that eventhough i am having a hard time raising her (because she's malikot) i'm proud that almost from the moment she was born it was me who watched, fed and bathe her... Except for those times when my inlaws and mom are here to watch her for me but she sleeps with me at the end of the day and just having a lil baby go to your side and look for your heat makes your heart grow big... I love you princess!!!

i wanna go home

i so wanna go home but i cant afford it, its too damn expensive and its breaking my heart because my desire to go home is so big yet i cant go home because it will be selfish of me to insist when we dont have moolah!

venting on why i cant go home

I wanted to go this year after christmas and before the new years. I don't know why but my urge to go home is something i cant deny. Its hard I swear but i don't want to be selfish... For the first time too that i only thought of me and Kali. When i used to always say that if i go home, Nik will have to come to me... I don't know whats going on. Maybe I need a break. A breather from being a mom and pregnant at the same time. Ofcourse its not going to be like the way it ways 2 years ago that I can do whatever i want, this time, i'm pregnant. But hey! all i wanted to do is rest for atleast 3 weeks and eat all the food i've been missing. maybe then i'll gain weight since i have problems on gaining weight on this pregnancy...

But we are talking about a $2500 fare here. I don't want Nik to worry about having too much debt, i swear the less we owe the better and the more we save besides we will have our wedding next year but i don't know. I just really want to go home...

Reality sucks... We can never have it all and I love my husband to burden him on this so i'll just vent out here and hopefully forget about this idea and move on... Besides my hubby got a really nice present for xmas and i just cant wait to open it though for now i'll vent...

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i wish

i have one wish this year and that is to be able to go home before New Years. I dont plan to go home this christmas because I want Kali to celebrate xmas here in US but I wanna have our new year back home but the fares are expensive. I dont want to add more on what we owe because of this but really I wanna go home... I know i cant have this but hey its my wish right... Maybe santa will give me this after all... who knows... i wish!

HA! $2500 to go home?!

I was checking online the prices for plane fare earlier... Man its expensive! Just for me and Kali to be able to go home after xmas and before new years to Gensan would cost us almost $2500.00 so if Nik will come it'd be $4000... Are you kidding me?! Yes i know i wanna go home but for that price, i aint pushing it because for one we cant afford it (the honest truth) and 2nd we need to save for the wedding next year and with another baby coming in the way, we really need to save... Now however, if I win the lottery, that's a different story!!! Haha I wish!!!!

Oh well, we can never have it all right but hey! i'm thankful that my family is healthy (not that i'm healthy... but i'm not complaining)...

So yah, just sharing my thoughts

im tired

doing the same routine everyday is tiring. I'm bored out of my wits. I'm tired w/ everything.... I need a breather but my life right now isn't all about me anymore. I have to think of my baby and the lil angel growing inside me before anything else. I hurt. I'm tired. I don't know what to do anymore....

Its tough when people don't understand what you're going through! I never want this thalassemia. I didnt choose to have this but I have it and I have to live my life w/ it forever, i just wish they understand that even when I try to be normal like everyone else. My life will never be that normal...

I hurt inside, they just don't know... One day I have a feeling i'll just colapse from all of this. Things are things, even when they are expensive but my body can never be okay even with that... I just need to be understood. I just need someone to help me through this. I just need someone who is there...

beauty sleep

I just woke up, i have a lot of bottles to clean and I need to change into my pj's. Not that i'm not on it right now, Kali happens to splatter some carrots on me earlier that's why i need to change.

I like sleeping early and like they said, sleep when the baby sleeps. I try too but its just hard when you do everything yourself.... That's why i try to do things i need to do in the afternoon when hubby gets off from work so i could sleep early but today was a lazy day...

Gosh, heat wave is coming up again... I've been loving the weather for the past 2 days and now I have to deal w/ the 90's temp again! I guess i can't let Kali use her overalls yet (though i've been doing that for the past 2 days - she looks so damn cute on it!)...

I can't really wait for winter time to come. I hate having to deal w/ the heat if you ask me, that's why frisco's weather is just the best but i've heard from my friend that its been hot there too but hey! they barely feel the heat if you ask me. That's what i love about frisco. You can count the number of days it gets hot over there than over here... Oh well, we live in sunny california!

I should be sleeping again... Well, i'm gonna go start cleaning the bottles now.... I got over 2 hours of sleep already so I'll hit the bed after (hoping KALI wont wake up)... Hayyyy this is beauty sleep!:) Anyways, ttfn!:) NYT!

The Body Shop

Two years ago my mother-in-law got into an accident. The moment we heard the news we were all in shock. At first thing came to our mind is that is mama okay and then the next, did someone get hurt... Good thing it only involve her car and a slippery freeway and no one was injured except for her car. It was a big one that we thought it couldn't be repaired. Thank God for the AUTO BODY SHOP they were able to repair the damage in my mother-in-laws SUV and it runs like the way it did prior to the accident. With affordable rates & friendly people who helps you access the damage and gives you advices, you'd never ask for anything more. They take care of you...


Accidents hurts, it hurts people and it hurts your pocket but with downey body shop you know you are being taken care of. I know where i'll go when i need any bodyworks on my car, our experience with downey body shop were excellent that I can recommend to my friends and family their work of art!

turning 27

OMG, i can't believe i'm 27! It seems that time had past by so fast that i just woke up and realize i'm 27. Nothing had change except that at 27 i'm a mom. Though career wise i havent really accomplish anything, i'd say i'm pretty proud of myself being a hands on mom... Next year, well it would be different. I'll have 2 kids, haha i wonder how i'll do by then.

I'd be lying if i tell you that i'm not struggling here. I am. Its hard being a mom to a 10 month old baby, a wife (to a [thankfully] not demanding husband!) and pregnant at the same time... I know i know you'd say i'm a fool getting myself in this situation because to be honest, i have asked myself how in the world did it happen when we were using protection but i guess when its God's will, its happens so i'm just thankful for the blessing. What a wonderful bday gift indeed...

Physically i'd tell you that i'm really tired. I just reach my 13th-week today and i have 27 (what a coincidence!) more weeks to go before i'd meet this lil' angel in me and I'm just excited. I do hope my body cooperates because right now, i feel like crap. I have this headache thats been going on for the past 3 days now and well I feel so stress...

I didnt really ask any gift from Nik this year. I told him to save all the gifts i'm entitled too for the whole year (so there's valentines day,mom's day, bday, anniv, & xmas) to just one gift and I can only get it on xmas! hehe so i'm looking forward to that and I know he's saving for our wed next year too! so i'm trying not to bug the hell out of him when it comes to spending, unless ofcourse it has something to do w/ diapers, wipes and milk!

A lot had happen over the year. The fact that i gave birth, i nearly died, i found out something big i couldn't believe can happen and I became a mom and though I'm not perfect, i try to be... And everything in my life now is all about Kali... Its just funny when i see people my age having fun and party like crazy... I miss that but I wouldn't trade what happen to me this past year for that... I had my chance and i did good so now i just love being a mom...

Good night everyone! Happy birthday to me :) and ofcourse to Ate pebs too:)

awake and bored so I'm blogging

i fell asleep as i let the lil one go to sleep earlier and now i'm wide awake. I should really hit the bed again but I forgot to check a lot of things online that i'm here in front of my PC.

Anyways, i dreamt about being Home. Its just funny that me and my were arguing. Its like i was never married and I'm just in college/HS that she can make me do things the way she wants it done rather than me doing what I want...

These days, that can never happen. yes she tells me to do this and that and we'd end up arguing because I'm hardheaded and i get so irritated by it. Hey! you cant blame me, i've been married for almost 4 years now... haha Moms! you can never change them... and i love her to death

Oh well, what i want to say is that I really miss home. The event where it took place may not be there when i go visit next year. Unless i go home January w/c is impossible... Nothings been finalize back home yet but if the pen hit that paper w/ one signature, a timer will start and the place where i grew up may soon be built w/ something a lot of people will love. As for us, we're moving far away from all the noise of the city.... I WILL MISS IT ...

I'll turn 27 in a week and 22 years of my life will just be a memory of a pictures or maybe videos. I wish that i could go back and say goodbye to our place before we leave it... Oh yah, i cant say too much details here but if you live in Gensan i think you've heard whats going to happen. Its not final yet but the thought of it happening just makes me sad because I'm here and i cant say goodbye. I have to make priorities thats why i wont go home till before the wedding. Thats reality, unless ofcourse i hit the jackpot w/c is unlikely because I don't buy a ticket!!!haha

oh well, i think i should head back to sleep.... Good night everyone

some thoughts

it was hubby's bday yesterday and all we did was eat out at mac grill for dinner. It was funny, kali cried when the lady sang the italian version of Happy Birthday to bu.... Hay babies, they are just so precious!

I've been trying my luck at PPP for the past 3 days now and still i havent got any! Oh well, i guess i have to stick my face infront of the monitor 24/7 just to get a review... The price of trying to make moolah from writing... Maybe I should just make a book... I have good imagination but it all stops everytime i start writing it down...

We are Bi-Standard, when guys cheat its easy to forget and forgive but when girls cheat, we tend to go Yucky over the situation... But hey to the people who have experience this events in their lives, i think its right for you to feel hurt and betrayed even if this is your mom/dad/grandpa/grandma or just plain your husband... I just hope it will never happen to me, with Gods guidance and help we'll do just fine...

and hey! when GUILT eats you up, its just funny because karma happens and on the years you've fooled your family, you deserve every inch of guilt you feel... and we dont feel sorry for it...

is WaMu filing for bankruptcy too???

Okay hubby told me to take out my money and Kali's off from wamu since they are prolly the next big bank that will file for bankruptcy soon. We've seen how the wall st. reacted w/ what happen to Merrill-Lynch (who's lucky to found B of A to buy them out for 50B) and Lehman Brothers. Now is Wamu gonna be the next? I don't millions let alone tens of thousands of dollars there but what i have there is something I try to save and Kali's savings (who happens to be way more than what I have) and if this is true, I don't want to lose those money.

I am a fan of Wamu, they never gave me headaches like B of A but it seems to me that B of A is the solid one (ofcourse they are, with all their fees that they are asking right?!). So Anyway, i'm wondering if the bank will tell me if they are in trouble coz I want our money and I don't want to lose this because the stupid economy is down.

If they just end the war and focus put the money to our economy, maybe just maybe this wouldn't have happen right?! Haayyyy now it makes me wonder how the next president will solve this. This gov't will pass a lot of prob to the next leader... I hope he's ready for it!

Birth Control PILL

if you have a friend who wants to get b.c. Pills! tell them to stay away from YAZ. MY ob said i'm the 5th patient who got pregnant w/ that pills... They should take it away from the Pharmacy! You take pills to prevent from getting pregnant. Ofcourse babies are blessings but when you dont plan it, it will really hit you off guard... I still cant imagine how i'm able to take care of a baby and a toddler next year but i have faith in God so i'll put everything in his hands... Hopefully Baby #2 wont be as hard as baby #1 (who happens to be spoiled!hehe oh well i have few months before my attention gets divided)...

SO dont take YAZ...take something else... THe TV ads are a bull!!!!

having a hubby who's a chargers fan

it hurts to see when your team is being cheated. 2 plays were taken away from them by the stupid ref. I wonder how much did the broncos pay him just to give the game away to the broncos! Who ever watch it esp. san diegan will trully say that we won this game.... And what about the broncos fans and players?! they are mocking the chargers like they deserve the win when they knew by heart that WE HAD IT... stupid ref! NFL is dirty... tsk tsk

crying

my god i was reading something on my email and i just cant stop crying. Then i was chatting w/ a friend discussing some things about life, and i was crying... man this hormones is killing me, i'm just so emotional wreck i swear!!!! Oh well, who can blame me when i'm 10 weeks pregnant right?!

so i will blog here

I'm thinking of leaving my multiply as my site for pictures and start blogging here or i can always copy paste this one there too. Anyways, I discover something fishy the other day that i told my cousins about. Now the issue became big that people are mad and hurt...

I ask my cousins if it was wrong of me to warn them about it but they said i cared thats why i said something. Oh well, it wasn't my fault. Here's the odd thing too, WTH did that account add me for if they didnt want to get in trouble... Such idiots but i think "he" think we're the idiot one thats why he sent the invites...

Like rubbing insult to injury so NOW, everyone is reacting. THis fool should stop and i think "SHE" should wake up because people around her love her but that fool will always be a pest in her life...

1st pocketbook i've ever read

Do you remember the very first pocketbook you've ever read? I do. It was the 1st book publish for SWEET DREAMS by Barbara Conklin called P.S. I love you. I remember borrowing this book from my cousin who happens to collect sweet dreams and this one was publish on the same year I was born.

I remember reading this 182pages book for 3 days and i was crying like crazy when i finish it...But anyways, this book means a lot to me since this one made me love reading so i decided to look it up online and buy it... I couldn't find it on ebay w/c is weird since you find everything there but i didnt lose hope i tried amazon. I found it and read it again! cute book, and what can i say, i cried again..haha

posted: Aug 17, '08 8:04 PM
from: multiply account

the ODDS

When you read literarture of some meds it says that there are 1 out of 1000 people show reaction to this and that. And how could a 99% be really effective when there's 1% possibility that things will get screwed!?

When you not plan something, things happen and it just makes you question how you screwed up when all along you followed the instruction/direction and you never miss a single pill.

Now i'm 1 out of the 1000. You'll get what i'm talking about.

posted: Aug 23, '08 10:51 PM
from: multiply account

I wanna say THANK YOU

to Ate Raquel and Kuya Peewee for Kali's Maclaren Parasol. Since i couldn't buy it here in US, they were kind enough to buy it for me in UK... Thank you guys! I don't have to worry about the sunlight hitting her face/eyes! Lets jus hope she wont break it!hehe

posted: Aug 29, '08 1:53 AM
from: multiply account

BER

in the Philippines, XMAS season starts when month of BER begins. You can hear christmas song on the FM station. You can see department stores beginning to put out the colors of XMAS. If you ask me, XMAS is just superb back home. That's what I miss the most. Even If back then I rarely go shopping for the season, still seeing the spirit of christmas makes my heart just swell up w/ hapiness...

I miss my home even when I made a home here in the US already, its just different... This would be my 5th christmas away from HOME. But things would be different this year, Kali will be able to open her own gifts and with a lil one on the bun, my family is getting bigger.

Atleast i have something to look forward next year. I will finally be able to celebrate it back home. 2009 wait for me. And maybe then my family will be finally complete, we'll finally have that complete family picture we've been yearning for all these years.

To those back home, enjoy the 4 month celebration of xmas. Ours doesnt come till after thanksgiving but hey it isn't too early for me to start listening to xmas songs... Heck! i'm filipino, i could have my tradition!:)

posted:Sep 3, '08 11:18 AM
from: Multiply account

update and carseat issue

When Kali turns 1, I need to change her carseat to the front facing one. The one she got right now is up to 30lbs but i doubt i'll use it for her after she turns one coz she gets bored on it now and I think it's about time for me to go back and seat on the front seat whenever hubby and I go to places. Yes! I've been sitting on the backseat since i had kali coz i keep her company and i make sure that she's not choking or anything.

Not that i put anything hazzardous near her, its just that i got use to it because when i got out from the hospital when i gave birth, the nurse told me to sit at the back w/ the baby. Though my mom usually sit besides Kali when she's with us coz she doesn't like riding in front, still most of the time, i am right next to kali...

Well I'll prolly have 5 months after kali's 1st bday to enjoy sitting in front then I'll prolly sit next to them again after that... Oh well, we will need a bigger car, 2010 just wait! Things happen when you least expect it... Well God have better plans for us :) so I have to be thankful for the blessings...

Anyways, i've been browsing for some convertible car seats... Read review from consumer report. Britax got the #1 review just like the Chicco KeyFit infant carseat... So now, i know what I need. I'm just lucky that my F-i-L promise to get us this, just like he bought Kali's carseat... So i don't really have to worry about it, but I can only purchase it online... Since they don't really have it on the store unless ofcourse I'll settle for something less...

It's quite pricey but we're talking about safety right?! and I cant thank enough our Accord for being reliable all this time... No wonder my hubby's family loves HONDA... My chicco however will be retiring for more or less 6 months then I have to use it again... Thank God i take care of Kali's stuff, most of her stuff looks brand new still and the fact that i didnt give anything away, I can use it again!!!!

Well, tomorrows the big day. I finally got that appointment i've been waiting for. After over 2 weeks of waiting, i can finally see the doctor. Hopefully i'll find out the exact date of the due date tomorrow.... Hayyy I just hate the health care here in US... I wish whoever wins in the upcoming election have plans to improve the health care here.... I may not be able to vote but hopefully before this year ends, i can fully pledge to be a citizen of this country... (i hope hope and hope!)

posted: Sep 8, '08 10:55 PM
from: multiply account.

feeling sick

I think I ate a lot today and i just feel sick. I normally eat a lot but i havent felt like this... I'm drinking gatorade coz i was craving for something sweet and I have a choice bet. this and arizona iced tea w/c i cant really take since it has gensing...

I just finish watching the VMA's, it would have been cool if Britney performed instead of that 4 sentence she just said... But I'd say she's looking good. Can't believe she pull it off in less than a year. I hope she'll never have a breakdown again


dated: Sep 7, '08 11:32 PM
from: Multiply account

nagging

I grew up in an enviroment where people nag each other. I said when i grew up i will not follow such path but I'm wrong. How you brought up in this world plays a big part of who you are. I still hate nagging but I do it. And I sure want to stop that way Kali won't have such example.

But it is hard not to nag when your partner in life is such a pain in the butt. He hates certain things and tells me what is it but can he even ask himself what are the stuff that he does wrong too???

My husband and I are 3 years apart. I am older. It means that a big part of me adjust to everything. If you want to make your marriage work, you compromise but sometimes the one who's older tend to do more compromise and understanding than the younger ones. And most of the time i just say, SUCK IT UP, you choose this life!

I know i am and will never be the easiest person to deal with. I have hurt so many people in my life and most of it are the ones I know wont leave myside no matter what. But sometimes we had to hurt them to be able to let them know we're now grown up and we have our own life to deal w/ and they as a guidance to us can't decide on our own but I guess everybody have a problems w/ letting go.

Having a great support system helps too! It sure feels great when you have good people around you but sometimes you pretend everything is perfect.

My life is beyond perfect but I choose this. Sometimes I'm in the verge of breaking down and say F*ck off! but I have to stop for a moment and look at my angel face daughter and says, LIFE will be good for you my princess...

anyways, i'm out... :)

when u realize u are alone

When you realize you are alone, it feels like a knife had stab you in your heart and then you stop and stare at the most beautiful thing you've ever seen in your entire life, your child.

I have Kali, i know that for sure. And I need to feel brave and strong even when I feel like i'm tired and hurting.

The irony of it all, i don't even know where to begin. i'm not materialistic, yes i admit i like nice stuff but I know when I can/can't buy.

just venting out

I guess i am really a bad person. Drama happens even when you don't even know you cause it. I hate drama.

It makes u wonder when you marry someone on how you should handle your life and what will your life become? I am happy, I love my husband and my baby but i just can't seem to please everybody in this lifetime.

When we marry and have kids, isn't it suppose to be your priority is your hubby and kid 1st before anything else? I get confuse coz i often gets to be in the middle that sometimes i know i jeopardize my relationship. I know its stupid but when you know my sit. you'll understand where i'm coming from.

I am really stressed out over some things that i didnt do but apparently hurt someone dear to me. I choose to ignore the problem and go on w/ my life because I ask myself on what i did wrong and i can't come up w/ a single reason.

Maybe choosing not to ask question that i know would cause more drama was wrong and it created more problems to a point of saying that "lets just not see each other coz you keep on hurting me".

I choose not to ask because i know it would put me in the middle of something that i don't want to be on. I said something when i know someone in the crowd is associated on someone who "majority" they were saying. I shouldn't have said racist,instead i should have said stereotype but i think it will leave her getting hurt and still i am wronged!

I am tired, hubby said to apologize but not to cry. I'm a cry baby. I have been apologizing in my entire existence because they know they can hurt me when they want to. So how can i apologize w/o crying and knowing for a fact that i did nothing wrong.

My dad drives faster than my hubby and yet i hear no complain. HA! why is it that when it comes to hubby, the blood just boils!? i don't understand that. I'm married. I am for 3 and half years now. I know i hurt them when i got married w/o them to witness it but its a long time ago and i think we should just get over that and go on w/ our lives and not bring it back all the time.

I need to be accepted as a married person. I respect you and you know that but i am an easy target to blame and stress on yet i don't think that's fair for me. I'm tired. If my relationship falls apart know that one way or the other, this drama is PART OF THE REASON why!

Its funny, i didn't even do anything yet I get to suffer.... It would have been a great vacay but too much drama!thank god i have Kali...

i hate drama1

i've been stressed out because i don't like what going on w/ my body. I get paranoid that one day i'd wake up and my time is clicking. I need to be strong for Kali. You wouldn't want to miss out your kid growing up right?! I try not to abuse myself. Heck! i quit all bad habits (no alcohol, no drugs [w/c i never tried], and no cigarettes [mind you i only smoke when i'm drunk and this was way back in college])but i haven't quit sleeping late.Even if I want to i cant so its just so hard...

Anyways, i hate it when people do drama and makes you feel bad. I know i ain't perfect but i have a lot more stuff to stress about other than adding more to it. If i'm so insensitive i shouldn't be feeling bad/sorry or even trying to figure something out in helping a certain person. So now i tell you I HATE DRAMA...

I guess having your phone run out of battery is sometimes a good solution on not to hear drama... sorry i'm just venting. I cant write this stuff over at my multiply, can I?!

crazy so. cali!

ok the weather is getting crazy here in the southland... Its just reminding us that global warming is happening and not only we have the earthquakes here, apparently WE HAVE TORNADO's TOO!!! crazy... It happen about 15 min away from where we live. Just off at march airforce base... Crazy if you ask me.... My friends place got rained w/ hail (as big as marbles) and she sent me video and pix of it... I'll upload it when i get a chance... But anyways, weather forecast says it could happen again tomorrow. Hopefully NO TORNADO!! jeezuzzzz... I'm scared of that...

i need to have a transfusioin

My doc called and told me that they got my blood test and everything is low. I wasn't surprise but she told me to go to ER and get a transfusion w/c I don't want to do... HECK i havent had transfusion in a long time 4.5years to be exact and i dont think i'll ever get one soon...so now i'm being refered to a hematologist...so we'll see

BF at 75

We only see or hear this in Hollywood actually but when its someone in your family that's dating at the age of 75, its just so weird... I can totally understand when your mom totally disagree w/ the situation but I won't say anything because she's not my mom and if its my mom, well I will totally give her silent treatment for the longest time and if you know me, you'd know i can do that...

Some says to just support "her" w/ this because she's old and she wont have that much time to live but if my mom doesn't feel right about this so she's entitled to feel that way and you shouldn't rub it on her face because she doesnt like the SITUATION...

Piece of advice though, Tell your siblings that way they know that "she" is acting like a teenager when "she" is suppose to act like her age... And tell them about her being U-F to some people they know too... If its my mom, i will definitely not tolerate it...oh well, i'm lucky because it isn't her:):)

anyways, been a while since i posted something here... I'll try to use this more often now that the multiply is being flooded by mi familia and I don't want them to read my thoughts, do I???hehe

so ttfn gotta hit the bed!:)nyty nyt!

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when people bully you

THEY MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE NOT A GOOD MOM AT ALL....

i feel so damn alone i swear to god! THIS ISN't EVEN POST PARTUM DEPRESSION because i never even thought of that... This is because they make you feel like you are.

belated happy thanksgiving

hay 8 more days to go and still no signs of Kali... I really hope i dont have to be induced and that she comes out soon...please baby girl, daddy and mommy wants to meet you as well as you grandparents and aunties and uncles:):)

ang tagal naman

2weeks and 5 days left before Kaliah is due to come out. It could come out sooner or it could come out way way later... I want her out now, i'm really not comfy even it the thought of giving birth is scaring the heck out of me. Okay lang, i'm super excited to meet my lil angel...

saying thank you

i've been sending out thank you card from the shower i got. I actually had 18 cards mailed already and those addy that i got late are the ones i'm working on at the moment. Anyways, I asked nik and SIL nikki if i have to send a card to this one particular couple that nik, nikki and nikko doesnt like. Just to be polite, i'll send one because they did give me a gift and they drove about 60mi just to be here. But they don't like this couple, they have a really good reason why actually and they actually don't understand why they were invited the my MIL in the first place. Like SIL nikki said, things in the PAST should remain in the PAST. to forgive doesn't mean you have to go out of your way and embrace them w/ open arms. 19 years something something is SOMETHING and well, they were affected too... I can't blame them...

now i got the addy i needed from my SIL that she asked from my MIL... the couple's addy is one of them so i had to make her call me and ask her if i'm really suppose to be sending those people a thank you card???? She didnt know that one of the names she got me was those couple, SO.... in order for me to not get in trouble. I am sending a THANK YOU CARD to that couple. I will say thank you for attending, thanks for the gifts. but that's pretty much it and I used Anna and Nik instead of Anna and Nikolai and no return addy... so i guess that's the right thing to do... I don't want to hurt Nik, Nikki and Nikko. and I don't want to disobey my MIL... so i'm in the middle of all these...tsk tsk

washing mode

Okay since my friend Ar gave birth 5 weeks early, it made me paranoid and started washing Kali's clothes, blanket, towels, beddings and etc. I have to put the bottles in the dishwasher soon too, well i just need to do the thorough cleaning since its the first cleaning but will be washing it again when i use it...

I have to really start packing my stuff for the hospital as well as Kali's stuff. I have to move to SD (inlaws) pretty soon too but the thought of leaving Nik here by himself makes me sad... I bet he'll be just sleeping and well, playing play station..hahaha

But who's gonna feed him? well right now, i'm not really doing a great job on that but hey, i'm pregnant and I get tired and bored from cooking these days. When i go to the cooking mode, i'd cook whatever... And lately, i've been eating fish! woohoo...

I have to cut donw my carbs actually and I really need to exercise... Man i'm really scared but excited. I wish kali would come out on the due date, but we'll see... On monday, i'll have the Lamaze class...hehe i'll be doing just 1 session and well, i'll let instinct do its job...

anyway, i have to finish ironing Kali's stuff...hehe arte ng baby na sobra!tsk tsk

all for kali now...

My birthday is coming up in 11 days and i'm really excited because prior to my birthday would be Kali's shower.... I cant wait to open the gifts i'm receiving. So far I have 4 downstairs that i so want to open but shouldn't coz i have to wait till the 29th.

I wanted a lot of things for my birthday but i'm making a priorities, I shouldn't ask for anything from my hubby and my parents because they've given me way too much for Kali.

SO bu asked me what i want. I wanted the SB800 flash for a long time now but its expensive so that's out of the list. Macbook?well, i know i cant have that unless we'll win some jockpot or something...hehe so i told him, i want the 50mm nikon nikkor lens, its only $119 in ritz camera but I'm thinking I really shouldn't be asking any gift this year, Maybe next year I can but this year, I've received so much from the people i love...

hayyy... its all for Kali now:)

lost in this world

i don't know where i am, i don't know where i'll be. I know this shall pass but it made me wonder, WHERE IN THE WORLD DO I WANT TO PLACE MYSELF AT??? I shouldn't be asking myself this, I should know where I stood but I don't. We call this crossroads but to be honest, i've been in this crossroads for so long.

in 12 weeks I'll meet my lil' girl. I should know and be certain where my life is heading before she comes out but Its hard. I've always been amaze w/ my dad's work that's why i followed him but now I'm hesistating. I should have taken nursing. I would have used it right away but we all know i never liked science.

Now i'm thinking of getting that course. For the sake of giving my family a better life. But will I be happy? Will i find myself? I don't know. Happiness is within. I'm happy but i'm hesitant to what I want in my life.

If only I know where I'm heading, i'd be sure that whatever I decide is right. But right now i cant afford to make mistake. I cant afford to be wrong. I should be a good example. I'm tired. I'm hella tired but Life must go one.

I used to know what i want. I used to know what my goal is but now its all UNCERTAIN... I just go w/ the flow. I just follow where the breeze sends me. I just hope wherever it goes, it will be the right thing to do...

our electric bill

its getting higher and higher since the summer started but not as bad as it was last year. Last year however our housemate didnt really care that it was the DAD paying for it but my ever so nice hubby cared so he told his parents after settling down here and having a job that he'd start paying for the bills... Well it was after summer so it wasn't that Bad.

Last year it was 3 months of bet. 200 - 300 dollars a month. August was the baddest that it reach almost $400. Tsk.. Nakakahiya pero yung mga tao dito walang HIYA!

This year it started w/ $90 for june $120 for july and $180 for august... Mind you Nik doesnt make a lot, dapat 1 week of his pay will just go sa utilities then the other 1 week for the credit card bills then the next 2 weeks are for groceries/gas and savings and well a lil dine out...

And suppose this "housemates" we have are to move out... THey've been here for 2 days for some military duty and the girl (i actually like her except the fact that di nagtatyaga sa heat!!!) and they haven't finish packing their stuff kaya di namin magawang maayos room nila! its the GUEST ROOM! they'll have their own place so they better not think its their room parin... so anyhow, THEY'VE BEEN TURNING ON THE AC IN THE MORNING!!!! ITS NOT FAIR KASI I MAKE TYAGA TILL NIK GETS HOME FROM WORK @4pm AND HAVE IT ON FOR AN HOUR OR 2 JUST TO COOL UP THE HOUSE PERO SILA NOOOOOOOOOOOO....

dammit! i really want to settle this AC issue, i swear its not being fair anymore... I am suffering from the heat to you know but am I complaining??? NOOOOO... i suck it up and deal w/ it... I just hope they stop coming to this house i swear!!!!

opinion PLEASE!!!

okay i made a registry at http://www.babiesrus.com since everyone except nik has been telling me to make one. Well, I finally did and I'm kinda uncomfortable because some stuff are just expensive. Not that i chose it to be expensive its just that I went for stuff w/ good reviews and something that is really important and safe. Safety is an issue and getting stuff that doesnt have a good review is a waste right??

so anyways, i did make one but i havent told anybody except well Nik since i showed him the stuff i posted and my SIL although she hasn't seen it yet... I'm hoping that I'll get all the stuff i posted para i dont have to buy that much anymore but ofcourse, WE ARE buying the crib, changing table and stroller. So that's not in the list... Too bad all my friends are so far away, so i really hope someone will get me those stuff!!!hahaha

so if you're me, will you make a registry? di ba nakakahiya???

dont u think its unfair?

2 people who lives w/ us here in the house are being a pain. They think that because this isn't their place, they can just do what they want. Heck! it annoys me when they see us clean, i mean thoroughly cleaning the place and yet they still mess it up. Like the kitchen, you see we spray it w/ disinfectant and yet they mess it up w/ sticky stuff and they just wipe it in a way that its sticky... doesn't that ever annoy you???

or they turn on the AC when we don't even though that coz we conserve energy and even if its hot, we just let the fan do its job instead of saying, Man its HOT and switch the AC on... I can do that if im insensitive but i dont since i pity Nik for he's the one paying for the electric. I barely even wash our clothes, i mean, I wash prolly 3x a month that way its a lot and i don't have to use too much heater on the dryer although i know it uses more of the electric than the gas in the first place and yah, we pay for the water too... Paying for the Gas and the Phone after over a year of living here isn't that bad right? I mean you werent even sensitive enough to think that the Dad is paying $300/mo for 3 months over summer because you were living high and mighthy w/ the AC on all the time because it was hot.

I can totally relate w/ how we feel in this place, its like Hell but then, i'm trying to be sensitive in not making my husband pay more than enough and besides he doesn't make that much. Fuck! this really frustrate me but like my husband says, money isn't worth fighting for but someday somehow a time will come that i will not keep my mouth shut and say what i wanna say. Fuck if i'm the bad person but hey! look into yourself and ask AM I BEING FAIR TO THIS PEOPLE????

i think she is!

i think my sister is bipolar! i talked to her OMG she's just so weird, its like 2 personality in one... Oh well, she's still my sister even if she hurt me a lot i still love her but well I don't think ill ever ask favors from her ever...

it hurts to hear your sis say....

i hurt so bad right now.... A person who is flesh and blood has said after my mom told her that when she's here she can help me out coz i'm about to give birth by that time and she just replied "AYOKO NGA, GAWIN NYA LANG AKONG YAYA" in a bitchy way. I hurt. I never do that to my siblings, never did. My brother was here for 7 weeks and never did i ever commanded him to do something for me, he hates it when i carry the laundry basket saying I shouldn't be carrying heavy stuff because its bad for the baby. I've been living here for 3.5 years now and I've been able to survive everything. A person, flesh and blood says that to your mom about you and your mom knowing you will find out told me before i get to hear it from someone else. It hurts... try to imagine how it feels but i'm not gonna mop around and live my life because of what she said. I have Nik, i have my mom and i have people who are more willing to help me in everyway they can even when they are so far away...

sorry mag mumura talaga ako eh!

magmumura ako dahil gusto ko at dahil naiinis ako sa ginagawa mo! tang-ina! wala ka na ba talagang pakialam sa family natin? ganyan nalang ba talaga tingin mo sa tatay mo porke nakapagtrabaho ka? sino ka sa akala mo? dahil ba nurse ka ganyan ka na mag asta? ang yang boyfriend mo PUTANG INA NYO! kahit kapatid kita, tangina ni minsan di ko ginawa yang pinagagagawa mo sa nanay at tatay natin. KUNG WALA KANG RESPETO! Umalis ka sa bahay at wag ka nang mag hanap ng pamilya dahil kung ayaw mo sa amin, pwes ayaw ka din namin. Akala mo kung sino ka talaga, kung ikaw mabubuntis! tang-ina ang TANGA MO! letche ka! ginagawa mo kaming tanga lahat, kapag nagkasakit si dad ikaw lahat sisisihin namin hangang sa di mo kayanin...mark my word mark my word! fuck you!

lalala

5 days to go till i get to hug and see my lil bro! i'll surely give me a big kiss on his cheeks eventhough he's 18 now. i just miss him and he'll always be my baby... 10 days to go till i will hear some news over something. I'm excited. I wanna write everything there is that i can write but for now i'll wait till the 8th of April will pass and the 13th of April will come. so...... lalalalala is all i can say for now:) and definitely there'll be pictures of this events:)

will be updating after friday the 13th..

since my lil bro is coming over on the 8th! yey i can't wait... and there's some stuff that i will find out on the 13th... i guess i'll be updating till then... i'll be writing whatever stuff i can think of between today till the 13th...so till then...:)

its just a croissant..

i just want a supreme croissant of jack in the box for over 10 days now and still i haven't got any at all. Its only $1.99 +tax and its just right across where he works and he cant even buy me one. i'm really hurt.

i need ur opinion!

is it okay to be friends w/ the EX?

would you let you bf talk to his ex?

i need your opinion on this...

wers the respect?

a question? you know something but you keep it to yourself that way it wont become a big deal. now you know she doesn't respect anyone, what would you do?

*&^%$# if it's bamba, ill kick her ass for sneaking in her bf. i dont give a damn if you think you're adult but in your parents house, you don't do such thing! too bad i'm insomiac that i know and hear lots of stuff!

my baby is such a sweetheart!

we dont really celebrate the v-day since i'm one of those people who think this day is korny. Why not do whatever it is you do on a v-day on any day right? anyways, my buboo is such a sweetheart, he had to take sa test this morning that he left early. he got home 2 hours later we a rose and a heart shape balloon and my breakfast (jack in a box supreme croissant!-been eating this a lot lately..hehe my latest addiction) and a nesquik chocolate drink! i was too sleepy that i just gave him a kiss and snuggle on his arms and went back to sleep. then we woke up at 11:45am and he made lunch! bbq rib eye steak! yummy... hehe my day was mainly spent here at the house wearing my pjs! since hubby had to work at 2, i had some cleaning to do...and i've been lazy to cook since there's still left overs then i got a call from hubby telling me to check what time does our fave jap. resto closes coz i dont have to cook, we'll just buy food... hayyy...today was my day of being pampered... thanks to my buboo:)

3 years ago::: Feb. 14, 2004 was the day that me and nik had our first conversation at some baby shower party in Lincoln St. in Alameda and he asked me if i wanna play billiards, i turned him down since i'm not really good at playing pool. funny! we never thought we'll end up being married.

level 10

ok my stress level is going higher again...NOT GOOD! i hate it when i'm stress already and then other people would make me more stress... as much as i try to breathe in & out and say grusfraba (is that right karen?) i just cant hold it and i snap.... today was something. On our way back home from walmart (we had to buy blank dvd's for the dvd cam) there's this dude in a green ranger pick up trying to drift or something like that. that he actually turned 180 deg (facing the traffic) in the intersection. And it was raining so the roads are slippery... situations like this, i freak out (for one i've experience turn-turtle accident and almost falling from the ridge from the past 6 years??) but i try to remain calm by being quiet. I was gasping the dvd's when it all happen in front of me actually. Goodthing that person didnt cause any accident. Then we had to enter the freeway on our right to pick up my sister-in-law's friend who's coming w/ us to the airport. as hubby made a right turn, well, he was kinda fast and it was slipper (from the rain and some sand) the car was kinda screeching on the road. my impulse made me shout SLOW DOWN at the same hit my hubby in the head w/ whatever it was i was holding in my hand. IT WAS AN IMPULSE! it wasn't meant to happen. i know it hurt and he was hella mad and to think this all happen w/ my sister-in-law as a witness. I was so quiet on the way home, i was scared at hubby coz i know it was my fault in hitting him but hey! i wouldn't have hit him if he didnt do what he did right? and it was an IMPULSE action. i hate it when he plays around my stress level. I cant controll my stress any longer and its not good. By the time we got home, i was getting my stuff to go out of the car he stopped me then gave me a hug and a kiss and i said sorry coz i know it's my fault and i'm not suppose to hit anyone but i cant help it.... and i was still numb!

w/ my stress going up and down, i'm actually feeling my chest feeling heavy everyday. My uncle had a quadrople (i have a feeling i spelled it wrong) bypass 10 months ago because of stress... and my grandpa had a multiply bypass coz of diabetis. IT RUNS IN THE FAMILY!!! now here i am 25 years old, no health insurance feels heavyness on my chest coz of stress when I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE STRESSING.... dammit. I don't want to stress anymore, LIFE is too short and i wanna enjoy it. and i wanna experience being a mom. haaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy

no parent-in-laws for 3 weeks...

yes my parent-in-laws are on their way to PI... papa haven't been home for 9 years while mama for 13 years. I'm sure they'll be amaze at how philippines had change in a decade. They went home for papa's homecoming batch '77 in PMA. As what i've heard, its a biggy and most of his batchmates that are still in the service are all generals. If he didnt decide to join his family here in US 9 years ago, he'd be a General in the Philippine Airforce by now but well, its for the best. So for the next 3 weeks, we'll mainly spend my hubby's day off in San Diego to watch over his 19 years old sister... and well, i guess there'll be some house party that's gonna take place over there sometime in this next 3 weeks.

LAX is still a crazy airport... I still love San Francisco... Hayyyy...

other news: BAD TRIP! bakit ba ang guys masyadong manhid??? i swear! obvious na syado na ginagamit yung bestfriend nya to get hold of him to tell him the news "I'M GETTING A DIVORCE" wtf..... eh alam na nung girl kung tatawag cya di sinasagot tawag nya, gagamitin ba naman yung bestfriend to get hold of him? OMG..syadong obvious, eh namang mga lalake, syado manhid.... hmmm.....

its okay to be friends w/ the ex but hello! tantanan nyo na kung may sariling buhay na at masaya na sa ibang tao. i have 2 other ex's in my life, 1 of them is a total stranger while the other is we're okay. but i don't talk/text/chat or anything to them as a respect to the guy i'm going out w/. ewan ko ba.

guys are so..... EWAN!

grrr..... i swear i just wanna hit nik on his head. he's tired, i know that! but he should know that i'm bored the hell out of myself here in the house doing nothing but stare at the corners and he cant even give me a fraction of his time coz he want to sleep???????? i've been sleeping late for the past week. LATE means i've been sleeping at 5:30am already and i have no idea why. i'm tired but i dont want to take sleep aid, i'll do this on my own. i'm just mad and hurt for some reason. and I asked him this, what would be his ideal date? sinagot ba naman ako na i don't think of that coz i'm married. that's for people that are dating. dammit! sarap sapakin eh.

its your birthday...

ALLEN............. happy birthday.... i wish that you the happiness all life has to offer. May God continue to bless you and your family always. I love you gwaps!miss you and yngat, enjoy your day aitte?! mwah! talk to you soon!

my bestfriend is such a sweet guy

i was depressed, he gave me this:

Before you are tempted to give up or get discouraged, remember all success is based on long term commitment, faith, discipline, attitude and few stepping stones along the way. You might not like the store you are in right now but it’s sure to be the one of the stones that leads to great opportunities in the future

i actually printed this and put it at the first page of my notebook...thanks nok!!!! i'm so lucky i have you :) love you.....

pms'ng

i asked my mom if being sad when you have your period is part of pms'ing. she said, maybe i have depression. I told her i always get sad whenever i have my period, i cry for no particular reason, i start questioning everything about myself, i just cry and try to be alone. nik on the other hand is getting pissed over my drama, even though he tried so hard to be patient and understanding, i know he's getting pissed. i do this to him all the time. i wonder how i'll be when i'm pregnant.. i guess it would be hell!haha

i'm sad right now, i'm super depressed, i want to sleep but i just cant. and if i try doing my HW (i did the research part already, i just to summarize and analize the article) my mind goes blank. i have days when i'm super depress but i fight it. its not something that needs attention w/. although i wonder what if i have?? i have an uncle (dad's bro) who had depression issues and i have a 2nd cousin who's in a high state of depression too and a cousin who got multiple personality disorder for some reason. so i guess it's in the blood...

or maybe because i've been getting frustrated of how my life is turning up. i'm getting frustrated over people's choices in life, i feel that everything is not right anymore. I'm tired, i know that for a fact although i had over 10 hours of sleep today. I don't know whats going on anymore and which path to turn when over 3 years ago, i know my goal but seems to me i forgot what it was...

other thing - had a discussion w/ hubby tonight over me saying this "well, i don't trust that friend of yours so i won't let you be w/ him alone, let alone let you guys go to vegas to visit your bestfriend together" he said DONT EVER SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT MY FRIEND %$#&. wtf... that friend of his is a crack head! ofcourse i don't trust him, even if he said that he doesn't ask him to do drugs w/ him, the temptation is there so you cant blame me right???? i was totally hurt when he said that. well, i still wont let him go w/ him anywhere together or let alone be near each other.

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as i'm at this state, i'm thinking of smoking. i barely smoke, you'd say i don't really smoke but at the moment, i'm really thinking of smoking and drinking coffee or those stay awake tablets and have a high caffeine on my system w/c is bad. and i said to myself that i'm getting weirder... tsk i don't really blame stuff on PMS, i never do. But right now, i have no other option but to just blame it on my hormones. :(

NOVA!

im jealous w/ you guys! island hopping the mt. climbing??? asar! me and allen are getting are a** froze over here and you guys are enjoying everything under the sun...man i so wish i'm over there! the next time i'll go home, lets go island hopping and other stuff too.... the last time, i was only w/ wella! so we better be complete+myti when it happens ok?!?! and details girl details!!!!! do i hear wedding bells soon????hhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm

to my friend...

i'm here for you always, i respect you for not telling us before. It's okay. I could say i know how you feel coz i've been there and i know your hubby will always take care of you. It will come, you know it will.... So you and hubby should be patient okay? for now, spend all the time in the world w/ your lil' girl. I love you.

i hurt

i hurt inside and i just want to stop hurting. funny things happen in life that sometimes you just cry instead of laughing. I don't know what to do anymore, i'm so tired of this so tired. This isn't like this all the time but when it happens, the pain is something you just cant understand. Why???????????????????? i don't deserve this. I'm tired.

Updates

January 2007:

Happy New Year to all! My blog updates would definitely late. Well, lately the connection we have here isn't really that good. My computer at work keep messing up, I need to reformat this but I'm still waiting for a perfect timing that my boss would not rush some paperwork. Internet connection keeps failing down...urghh!!!! gets into my nerve sometimes..makasapot! hehehehe...

Since I'm back from work again, I am doing the same routinary works all over again. I'm not sure on how long will I be able to stay here. I'm losing what I have studied before, how can I move on into another level when I don't know how to start again? BUMMER!!!!

tsk damn job, when will i ever have one??

I was gonna apply for a "planning intern" but i turned in my application too late so that leaves me in a dead end again. Man, i really don't know what i'm gonna do w/ my life although i love being at home and doing nothing but i just got to earn some moolah to be able to save or buy whatever i want and not feel guilty in spending it. tsk tsk...

i did apply in an employment agency to help me find the job that i want and i have an interview set for tomorrow at 12:30pm so guys, wish me luck. I wish i can see what i want in a clear view. Hubby doesn't want me to work, i know that for a fact but i'm getting too bored here that i want to do something. We haven't played golf for a while coz its been cold and well, the holiday left us both broke so we're catching up.

I wanna go to the gym, after a year break from not going to the gym, i finally want to take that step and try to make my life be healthy but i need a job to do that. Its not that expensive but i don't want to spend money that i didnt earn although i know hubby wouldn't really mind.

I've been reading too much pocket books lately, i guess i've been eating up my time reading cheesy stuff w/c reminds me of my cousin's bestfriend who's an author in pi who told me to write something and see if she can publish it...haha! yah right... i don't even write well..tsk tsk but well, my mind can make up lots of imagination but i just cant put it in writing..

anyways, i'm gonna try and make myself tired that way i can fall asleep early tonight. i really wish before this month would end, i will find a job.

i welcome 2007 w/ high level of stress

i was writing about my reflection of 2006 but i change my mind. I'm chatting w/ my cuzin, i told her about eh CO issue (hubby applying and passing the test). I'm really sad. Its new year and i'm suppose to start this year in a happy mode that way throughout the year i'd be happy but i'm not. I'm actually scared of this year for some reason. I don't know whether or not this will turn out pretty good or it will be the worst year of my life.

A realisation hit me today as we drove back home from LA (we dropped off my mom). I need to find a job and i need to have on before the month of january ends. I'm scared to make use of what i've learned because i honestly forgot most of it. I'm dumb. honestly. But i need to learn how to be independent.

I love my hubby too much, now i'm wondering, i can ever love him a lil less and put that love on myself??? i don't know where to start actually. Since the CO thingy had happen, i have hurt. I tend to keep quiet coz there's not point of arguing things. I try to convince myself that it's okay but deep down my heart, i still cant make him work over there.

If i love him less that means i wont worry as much. But that's not how its suppose to be, it wouldn't be right if i do that. But my head had been pumping too much w/ this issue. Maybe if the evaluation thingy didnt get canceled, i have a good chance on working as a junior engineer this year. That would mean i get paid well, that would mean hubby wouldn't think of looking for a job that pays 4x bigger than what he gets and ditch the nursing school.

i know everything happens for a reason but i wish 2007 would bring me luck. I'm tired of stressing. i understand though that hubby is doing this for me but living away from each other on most days of the week are for my benefit??? how so? i'm tired....

happy new year everyone!

still have a day to go and its new year in this side of the world. I wonder how 2007 will turn out, i hope no more violence, pls. Let there be peaceeeeeee..... well, 2006 had been great but i wish 2007 will bring me luck in getting the job of my dreams... There's so much to be thankful for although i didnt make any new year resolution, it doesn't usually happen... so what's the point right? anyways, Happy new year to all.... Have a good one!

happy birthday to karen marielle zhou and her twin bro Kevin Ryu Zhou!

he took the test.. and i'm not happy

yes hubby took the CO test, he passed the 1st one and doing the 2nd one at the moment. I should be happy and thankful that he passed the 1st test but i'm not. This is pure honesty. I don't know what i'll do if he'll get a call for a training. That would be 4 mos away from me coz training are usually held in Stockton, CA and for one the job is in chula vista, CA (san diego area) so that means we'll be apart. I don't know if he ever think of the consequences when he applied for this one in the first place. Yes they make a lot of money but the job is really dangerous and just thinking about it makes me both sad and mad. I hate it. Now, i'm thinking of the "what if's" and i still don't know the conclusion of this. I want him to stay in school, finish the damn nursing and graduate and not get a job that would make him a lot of money that involves danger. Yes, i should be proud but from the very start he knows what i think but still he didnt listen. I should be honest to myself so i'm not gonna pretend to be happy but i'll be civil about this.

in case he gets the job, i will not spend a single cent he will make. I don't care, this is not how i want it to be. I will for one live my own life from that moment on. I will do what i want, doesnt matter if it will involve him or not. I dont care, i dont want to care anymore. I swear this marriage will suffer because of that decision and for one, i could be blame but hey! i told him from the very start that i'm not expecting too much from him. He will totally drive me away w/ this. I guess you can say i'm just being honest to myself even though i know i'm being selfish but who cares right? maybe its good that we dont have kids yet. I'm even thinking of leaving this life and go back home. Atleast over there, i am happy. I'm not saying i'm not happy but i have friends there and i know they care.

i know he's doing this for me but this is not what i want. I don't want him to be away. What's the point of being married if you live far apart right? that's messed up. besides, i followed him here in southern cali and left bay area even when i didnt want to.

hayyyy... still sick, i'm stressing and my period just started. This day is just soooooooo i don't know.

and so i got what i want:)

i'm so happy that i finally got my DSLR. Christmas passed just like that and I didnt get drunk like my cousins back home because i'm sick again right now. I wish before new year comes, i'm OK that way i can drink the martini asti we bought down stairs.... I would love to go out and take pictures but i don't want to risk it...hehe when i'm better, watch out!:) they'll be lots and lots of pictures of whatever subject i can see... i'm thinking, maybe next year i'll wish for a MAC... hehe... i hope the year 2007 would bring me luck in finding a job. i need a job, i wanna have a career and i want to grow and be able to stand in my own two feet. haaaaaaayyyy... my head is spinning so gotta go.:)

Merry Christmas Everyone!

May PEACE, LOVE, JOY and HOPE be with you and your family this holiday season.... Merry Christmas!!!!:)

i got it I got it!!!!

i so got what i wanted............. hubby loves me but can't play with it coz its already wrapped so gotta wait till xmas day to unwrap my "wish"... thank you lord!

arrggggggggghhhhh again

i went to my mom's last monday and spend the night. SHe told me to come back on friday w/ this puppy look on her face that made me say nothing.... Now my hubby's told me that we will go to san diego and visit his parents on friday...so now i told him that he has to take the test to get it over with, that way when he's taking it, i can go over to my moms.... i made peace w/ her, making her be my priority but i know nik will be disappointed, not that he doesn't want to spend time w/ her but he wants to go see his family... and i plan to pick up my mom on xmas day. so in span of 7 day, ill be driving back and forth from here to LA and back... god when will this stop, i give her my time but seems she wants everything from me...now i'm stuck again. if i tell her i cant go, she'll make me feel guilty and say that she knows she's not my priority and stuff like that but i understand what my hubby wants to do too... i know he'll say come back there AGAIN?????

remember my wish list?!

well, if you've been following me on my multiply you'll know.... so far i got 1 of the 5 stuff i wanted. its an anniversary gift from my buboo...i'm spoiled although if you ask me, i could settle for a flowers and a personalize card. i don't really need expensive stuff...really but i'm happy...hehe... well, i'm hoping i get another one from my wish list (or even better) by xmas but if not I'm happy w/ the anniv gift i got:):):)i couldn't ask for more...

am i really happy??

i've been asking this myself last night. we've reach our 2nd year anniv and i'd admit that there were moments when we just can't understand one another and we get into each other's throat and i know i'm a pain in a butt on most time...

so i was texting w/ my bestfriend nokski last night...i told him i'm sad and i wish to go home. He told me to hang in here and just talk to him (the person above) i told him that i do,i even make peace w/ myself, although i still wonder if i really did.

i'm tired. its like my whole body is bruised, mind you i get bruised easily... i've left my home town to be here, to pursue a dream, a dream that i sometimes wonder if it will ever happen. I admit that i'm lost, i don't know what i really want and i really plan on doing. 2006 is about to end and i ask myself if i've accomplished something this year... am i really happy or i'm just pretending? hayyyy.... its frustrating!

i feel safe here

but its complicated still... i still love blogging over at multiply but if i write something, i shouldn't add my sister coz my mom's open her acct w/c isn't good...she read some of my rant over there.... i made peace w/ myself last night but i dont know if i'm happy or what? strange..... happiness means being w/ my loved ones but why do i feel so incomplete??? im thankful for lots of things but i have no one around me whom i can talk to, well except for my hubby but its different having friends around.... i felt so carefree when i went home during my sister's graduation... life........ we cant have everything...

call me selfish i don't give a damn!

my buboo got a letter from the department of correctional. apparently, he applied eventhough i told him not too. Call me selfish but i don't like the people i love to join the navy, marines, military, airforce, police, fireman, correctional officer or anything that's in the service that involves risking their life. I admire those people who are in the service, they are brave but i don't want to be the one stressing over someone because i don't know whether or not they are safe.

I was disappointed when i got his letter, i was thinking of not giving it to him but i know its wrong so instead i gave it to him and waited on whether or not he got in. He needs to take the test according to the letter. Apparently, he passed the 1st step of the application. I wasn't happy about it and i didnt hide the fact that i wasn't happy at all. SO i told him this, its up to you but you know what's my stand.

I don't know if he'll even take the test but i know he's considering it. If ever he'll get in, what will i do??? give it a chance but i don't want to.... i'm a worrier...i don't want to worry. hayyyy ewan ko ba, bat kasi nakinig sa kuya about that.... grrrrrr kaka badtrip sobra!

arrggggggghhhhhhhh

arrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhh..... i'm so mad at nikolai. this i can write here in blogspot! first he didnt go to church w/ me coz he had to work at 12:30 when the church ends 11:30 and its only 5 min away. then he didnt listen to me from my mumblings about requesting to work in the morning of saturday (dec. 9) instead in afternoon coz we need to go to LAX to drop off my grandma. Wtf! does he even care at all???? i'm so mad at him right now that i just want to go far far away and take a breather..... you may think, i'm so babaw but if you think about it, i've told him nth times that to ask. so i told him. work! i'll figure something out. dammit. this guy is a pain in a butt... i just wanna kick him....